A Quickie cos I have 3 articles to finish and i have to do a reflection report on them for my class tom.
the Devil wears prada is the best movie i have watched this year. Im not that good with words actually. But I will try to put my ideas across. I watched this whole show with my heart. At times, i was moved to tears. AHAH.. but i think wm didnt realise. Its ok. It would have been embarrassing. Many of the things from the show were most aptly relevant to my life at this juncture. It is not just a movie about choosing the right career, it is yet another movie to inspire one to be true to their selves. Many a time, we are challenged with moral issues that are in the grey area and we only have our own values to rely on. Glam, pay, work, people's words can only bring transient motivation. If you do not truly enjoy and believe what you do, you will not be able to go on. It is important to stay true and hold firmly the values that one has. Hmm.. I did face certain ethical issues like that at my work place. It is something which till today, I wished I could have done it differently. It is something small, but when it comes to ethical issues, i realised, there severity is subjective.
Anyway.. After watching the show... I think i will hold my car keys more firmly. Yes.. I wanna start this car. Even if things do not turn out the way i would expect them to be, from where I stand at this point, from what I see and from the recognition and opportunity and his belief in me.. I shall give this a try.
Another dilemma I face... Im not sure if I should do a close to 3 weeks service learning project at Nepal or go visit Seoul. I feel tat I can visit seoul anytime cos Jy would be there but Nepal is one of the places which I have really wanted to visit and it is only rare that such an opportunity arise.
Somehow, i feel that my life is constantly changing. The plans and things that I thought I would be doing always turns out otherwise. However, I never regretted planning for anything. Everything keeps me going and motivated. I just need to be open to choices and I am open to change. Being very flexible is important cos you will never know what is out there for you till the very last moment. And many of the very best things that have happened to me indeed caught me unaware and they are all blessings that came when I least expected them.
Im addicted to my emotional fulfilment and I enjoy the motivation from all these talks and movies lately. I am enjoying every single moment of my life. I have fun. I learn. I listen to myself. I reflect. I think. I feel. I love. And I ENJOY.
I can feel that strength from within. It just keeps me going. And I need it and I will find ways to keep that adrenalin at this optimal level.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Early bird song with a feminist tune...
Im happy to be up at 830am and be ready for the day. Actually I first woke up at 700am and I was all ready to get up of my bed. However, i heard papa's voice.. he was practising his fav songs that he would sing at his ktv sessions and I would say it was a bit of a "noise". Besides, it was raining cats and dogs again. And who can resist not sleeping in on a rainy day? So somehow... I dragged on and fell asleep again.
I am beginning to lag in my readings again. This sem all my readings are so intensive. I feel like an art student rather than a business student. But no worries.. I will catch up. I have to.
I received the DVDs from www.hollywoodclicks.com.
I think they are a very successful online DVD rental store with a pretty impressive collection of DVDs. The online system they have is so customer-oriented that I have no frustration choosing my dvds and they even have nice features like "recommendation" section that shows say about 5-6 other shows that they think you might be interested after you click to read more about one show. I am on their trial membership currently which is free for 14 days. After which i think i might just take on a plan. Im a movie addict. I just enjoy putting myself in the different "world"s in the various movies.
GO TRY IT.
Yeah.. Im going to catch the Devil wears prada and Im excited about it. I heard it is a pretty thought-provoking movie, especially relevant for people like us now. I will write more about it after I catch it.
I went for this talk organised by the School's woman connection. A society that aspires to inspire woman and bring out their strength plus to get them to network with some of the woman achievers in Singapore. And we met a few of these incredible ladies yesterday.
Euleen Goh who just was a former CEO of standard chartered, was our guest speaker. She is such an approachable lady. Her humility is something i pay great respect to and of which I will never give away no matter how much i achieve next time. I hate those snobbish ladies i always see at my workplace. And even during those networking sessions, some of these people just feel that they are too good for everyone else.
I manage to speak to Grace park and hear quite a bit about her life in military school in the US, training with other guys and she attended Harvard Biz School too b4 she eventually come to singapore to join the corporate world. She is one lady who is not only pretty, but is also a lady who constantly challenges herself to aim above the mark to hit the mark. Her perserverance is truely admirable too.
Hai yen is also another inspiring character who has great passion for the outdoors and she is highly involved in community service too... She has a very nice voice.. and by the way, she is also a seasoned outdoor racer and ultramarathoner. She once raced across the SAHARA to raise $5000.
Lastly we have margaret chan whom i never really spoke to but who is also another Great woman with great passion in what she likes and what she is doing.
With all these inspration to build on both my emotional strength and physical well-being, I am more motivated than ever to keep myself going and achieve. It is not easy for woman to survive and do well in this corporate world. Though times have already changed, it is undeniable that there exist still, a pretty lot of discrimination in the heads of the XY genes.
"Be aware of your strengths and know what you are good at, be steadfast and be sure to know ya values and ya bottomline cos they will be constantly challenged in the work place. In whatever you do, Have fun!"
I realised that from a lot of great leaders, they never fail to inject fun in their work. It does not mean that they are not serious. However, it is through fun that I believe the essential synergy within a team is created. At the end of the day, relationships counts. After you are done with a project, nothing will be left of that project. Friendship is all that is left...
I am beginning to lag in my readings again. This sem all my readings are so intensive. I feel like an art student rather than a business student. But no worries.. I will catch up. I have to.
I received the DVDs from www.hollywoodclicks.com.
I think they are a very successful online DVD rental store with a pretty impressive collection of DVDs. The online system they have is so customer-oriented that I have no frustration choosing my dvds and they even have nice features like "recommendation" section that shows say about 5-6 other shows that they think you might be interested after you click to read more about one show. I am on their trial membership currently which is free for 14 days. After which i think i might just take on a plan. Im a movie addict. I just enjoy putting myself in the different "world"s in the various movies.
GO TRY IT.
Yeah.. Im going to catch the Devil wears prada and Im excited about it. I heard it is a pretty thought-provoking movie, especially relevant for people like us now. I will write more about it after I catch it.
I went for this talk organised by the School's woman connection. A society that aspires to inspire woman and bring out their strength plus to get them to network with some of the woman achievers in Singapore. And we met a few of these incredible ladies yesterday.
Euleen Goh who just was a former CEO of standard chartered, was our guest speaker. She is such an approachable lady. Her humility is something i pay great respect to and of which I will never give away no matter how much i achieve next time. I hate those snobbish ladies i always see at my workplace. And even during those networking sessions, some of these people just feel that they are too good for everyone else.
I manage to speak to Grace park and hear quite a bit about her life in military school in the US, training with other guys and she attended Harvard Biz School too b4 she eventually come to singapore to join the corporate world. She is one lady who is not only pretty, but is also a lady who constantly challenges herself to aim above the mark to hit the mark. Her perserverance is truely admirable too.
Hai yen is also another inspiring character who has great passion for the outdoors and she is highly involved in community service too... She has a very nice voice.. and by the way, she is also a seasoned outdoor racer and ultramarathoner. She once raced across the SAHARA to raise $5000.
Lastly we have margaret chan whom i never really spoke to but who is also another Great woman with great passion in what she likes and what she is doing.
With all these inspration to build on both my emotional strength and physical well-being, I am more motivated than ever to keep myself going and achieve. It is not easy for woman to survive and do well in this corporate world. Though times have already changed, it is undeniable that there exist still, a pretty lot of discrimination in the heads of the XY genes.
"Be aware of your strengths and know what you are good at, be steadfast and be sure to know ya values and ya bottomline cos they will be constantly challenged in the work place. In whatever you do, Have fun!"
I realised that from a lot of great leaders, they never fail to inject fun in their work. It does not mean that they are not serious. However, it is through fun that I believe the essential synergy within a team is created. At the end of the day, relationships counts. After you are done with a project, nothing will be left of that project. Friendship is all that is left...
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
I will Never look at Woods in the same light anymore. He shall be my new IDOL for now...
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Manila or Ho Chih Minh?
OK. I only have 15 min b4 to get ready to leave the house BUT I think i should blog for like 5 min. So i need to type FURIOUSLY again. Pardon any typos ok?
Yesterday we went for the course management session of the golf. Basically that was our first experience at the Green. Now i sort of better appreciate the different clubs, the strokes the swings and I am now able to link them to a game. Although I still need to brush up on a lot of things... that was a fruitful session.
Woah.. my ball went into the water... and later on went into the bunker twice. The first time i had like 3 tries b4 i managed to get it out. So embarrassing. Then the 2nd time the ball went into the other bunker, David gave up. He helped me. AHAHAH... to save time. As to the ball that did not make it pass the waters.. it remains as it is and it is one ball lost for him.
I definitely wanna keep this sport. I have to go practise more and then go for my PC test.
ONE DAY... ONE DAY i shall get my handicap title...
NEXT UP....
Philippines or Vietnam?
Personally i would love to visit vietnam more.. but the former is cheaper. Both are pretty exotic. HAha.. Maybe i should consult mummy.... Cos anyway.. i need to get that stamp of approval. Its now or never that i travel. I cant switch from the porsche to a jet anytime i want.... BOUNDED le... SO BOUNDED...
But I WILL TRAVEL this term break...
Yesterday we went for the course management session of the golf. Basically that was our first experience at the Green. Now i sort of better appreciate the different clubs, the strokes the swings and I am now able to link them to a game. Although I still need to brush up on a lot of things... that was a fruitful session.
Woah.. my ball went into the water... and later on went into the bunker twice. The first time i had like 3 tries b4 i managed to get it out. So embarrassing. Then the 2nd time the ball went into the other bunker, David gave up. He helped me. AHAHAH... to save time. As to the ball that did not make it pass the waters.. it remains as it is and it is one ball lost for him.
I definitely wanna keep this sport. I have to go practise more and then go for my PC test.
ONE DAY... ONE DAY i shall get my handicap title...
NEXT UP....
Philippines or Vietnam?
Personally i would love to visit vietnam more.. but the former is cheaper. Both are pretty exotic. HAha.. Maybe i should consult mummy.... Cos anyway.. i need to get that stamp of approval. Its now or never that i travel. I cant switch from the porsche to a jet anytime i want.... BOUNDED le... SO BOUNDED...
But I WILL TRAVEL this term break...
Monday, August 28, 2006
Bad English + My DREAM CAR
Yeah... I have been told and I have noticed... BUT ONLY AFTER I PRESS THE "PUBLISH" button that i have lots of TYPO Errors... and sometimes i try to catch my thoughts and at the same time try to type ASAP.. I ended up with lots of unglam and terrible spelling.. grammer.. or just WRONG words... like how sy is coming back WITH DESARU... haahah Well...
Let me see.
I have a very different outlook of my life at this point of time. I know i am near a cross road and also... a turning point. I have been led and shown a direction which has a car for me to use as a means to reach that ultimate destination. Should I just rely on what I have and is given and be contented? Cos this aint no lousy car... this is a black porsche.
Or should i go for more career talks, brush up my resume and go hunt for more routes and hopefully, be shown more roads that have cars there that I can hop on and use too. However, no matter what other roads i chose, i wont know if i like the car that is is parked there. Im not sure if I will find it comfortable and if these cars will lead me anywhere. Im not sure If the Ferrari that i may see from here will turn out to be a MAZDA. At least, i have sat in that black porsche, im familiar with the engine, i like the interior and I have seen the roadmap that was in the car. I am not sure what places the road maps in these other cars will lead me to, if there is a roadmap to begin with.
However, i do hold some reservations. What if this black porsche turns out to be a scrap metal after a few months? I will be stuck. What if the engine fails? What if the door is locked from the outside and I get trapped? What is the proposed destination never really existed?
Holding a car key in my hand does give me a sense of security. And Im glad I dun really have to go search for one. However, once i get into the car and start the engine, its no turning back for at least a while...
Some people like to build their own cars. But with no capital and no guts, I cant do that. Like the majority, i wait for car keys.
I am walking towards the black porsche with the key in my hand. I guess it is only human nature to be looking out at the other roads for other cars that hopefully already has the car key placed in the keyhole with the engine running... But still... Even if I see and Am given a ferrari... I will still be in a dilemma... cos I do not really wanna return my porsche key... cos of the very fact that I wont know which car is better... For the destinations that both will lead to are both grey and filled with uncertainty.
ANYWAY... I hope to start my engine soon....
VRROOOMMMM VRRROOOOMMMM.....
Let me see.
I have a very different outlook of my life at this point of time. I know i am near a cross road and also... a turning point. I have been led and shown a direction which has a car for me to use as a means to reach that ultimate destination. Should I just rely on what I have and is given and be contented? Cos this aint no lousy car... this is a black porsche.
Or should i go for more career talks, brush up my resume and go hunt for more routes and hopefully, be shown more roads that have cars there that I can hop on and use too. However, no matter what other roads i chose, i wont know if i like the car that is is parked there. Im not sure if I will find it comfortable and if these cars will lead me anywhere. Im not sure If the Ferrari that i may see from here will turn out to be a MAZDA. At least, i have sat in that black porsche, im familiar with the engine, i like the interior and I have seen the roadmap that was in the car. I am not sure what places the road maps in these other cars will lead me to, if there is a roadmap to begin with.
However, i do hold some reservations. What if this black porsche turns out to be a scrap metal after a few months? I will be stuck. What if the engine fails? What if the door is locked from the outside and I get trapped? What is the proposed destination never really existed?
Holding a car key in my hand does give me a sense of security. And Im glad I dun really have to go search for one. However, once i get into the car and start the engine, its no turning back for at least a while...
Some people like to build their own cars. But with no capital and no guts, I cant do that. Like the majority, i wait for car keys.
I am walking towards the black porsche with the key in my hand. I guess it is only human nature to be looking out at the other roads for other cars that hopefully already has the car key placed in the keyhole with the engine running... But still... Even if I see and Am given a ferrari... I will still be in a dilemma... cos I do not really wanna return my porsche key... cos of the very fact that I wont know which car is better... For the destinations that both will lead to are both grey and filled with uncertainty.
ANYWAY... I hope to start my engine soon....
VRROOOMMMM VRRROOOOMMMM.....
Sunday, August 27, 2006
HAPPI
Sniff sNiff....
Arrghh.. Im sleepy. So tired. Woke up so early this morning for golf. I foresee myself enjoying a bodyache tom. And Im not sure if the Cardio Dance starts tom. I hope im able to get through that.
I had a most fruitful and wonderful chit chat session with Belle and Nette.
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY NETTE!!!... SORRY. WE Forgot ya birthday. And instead of us getting you a card, You gave us presents. HAAh.. SO sorry... Belle and I will make it up to you soon... SOON. But since egg tart is here, i dun think you will have time for us. And its ok, by next week, none of us would have remembered anything. SO BAD right? AHAH...
Sy should be back with Desaru today. I think she should be pigging out. Must have enjoyed herself a Lot.
I WANT TO WATCH the Devil wears prada!
I finally got down to doing up my own organizer.. as in like you know, those notebooks and then while chatting to peeps yesterday, I manage to finish putting in the dates. Im excited about my life. My FINAL LAP. HMM... I must enjoy my courses. I must work hard. I will play harder. Time to get that sports thingy into my life too. Now that the intro class is coming to an end, Im not sure if i should continue with my intermediate with him. Hiaz.. I feel the other instructors are better le. But then again, if i were to continue there and stop learning from him, its gonna be politically wrong right? I dun wanna give up my golf le...
I wanna learn bladding....
I wanna learn Tennis...
I wanna TRAVEL...
Shi is now motivated and Happy.
Time to catch up on my reading too. I feel EXTREMELY ignorant ever since the ST subscription ended. Should i continue subscribing or should i just make myself buy from newstand. But I enjoy waking up and first thing in the morning is to read the papers. I hate to read newspapers at night. I hate to read newspapers that belong to yesterday, the day b4... etc... Like History.
Gotta catch up on my books too.. SO MANY. NEED TO READ!!!
Eyeing a bag and I need to get a new pair of golf gloves. The blisters are just ugly and painful.
Arrghh.. Im sleepy. So tired. Woke up so early this morning for golf. I foresee myself enjoying a bodyache tom. And Im not sure if the Cardio Dance starts tom. I hope im able to get through that.
I had a most fruitful and wonderful chit chat session with Belle and Nette.
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY NETTE!!!... SORRY. WE Forgot ya birthday. And instead of us getting you a card, You gave us presents. HAAh.. SO sorry... Belle and I will make it up to you soon... SOON. But since egg tart is here, i dun think you will have time for us. And its ok, by next week, none of us would have remembered anything. SO BAD right? AHAH...
Sy should be back with Desaru today. I think she should be pigging out. Must have enjoyed herself a Lot.
I WANT TO WATCH the Devil wears prada!
I finally got down to doing up my own organizer.. as in like you know, those notebooks and then while chatting to peeps yesterday, I manage to finish putting in the dates. Im excited about my life. My FINAL LAP. HMM... I must enjoy my courses. I must work hard. I will play harder. Time to get that sports thingy into my life too. Now that the intro class is coming to an end, Im not sure if i should continue with my intermediate with him. Hiaz.. I feel the other instructors are better le. But then again, if i were to continue there and stop learning from him, its gonna be politically wrong right? I dun wanna give up my golf le...
I wanna learn bladding....
I wanna learn Tennis...
I wanna TRAVEL...
Shi is now motivated and Happy.
Time to catch up on my reading too. I feel EXTREMELY ignorant ever since the ST subscription ended. Should i continue subscribing or should i just make myself buy from newstand. But I enjoy waking up and first thing in the morning is to read the papers. I hate to read newspapers at night. I hate to read newspapers that belong to yesterday, the day b4... etc... Like History.
Gotta catch up on my books too.. SO MANY. NEED TO READ!!!
Eyeing a bag and I need to get a new pair of golf gloves. The blisters are just ugly and painful.
Blind
OK.
I have decided to post one more entry b4 I sleep tonight.
I think i should get the focus back to my life once again. Its no point leading a life that revolves around others' or that has somewhat influenced by others. Wanna do something, i should just go ahead. I should be giving myself priority. I shall be more firm. I think at the end of the day, everyone has their own schedule so no one will really wait for you or you know, adjust and fit you into theirs nicely. Its tiring when you are the one that is constantly trying to fit. Forget it. I shall just live it my way. It doesnt matter. Since i think at the end of the day, it DOESNT matter.
And why should i get myself all upset and unhappy. I should stay happy my way. There is a limit as to how much i can give. Or at least there is a limit when i dun see that I should be giving so much.
Im tired. As much as i dun want to. Its getting more disheartening. Be optimistic, be positive, only focus on the good. Ya? Maybe. Its easy when you only see good around you. Its easy when the bad is not so obvious.
Priority. Where?
I know why im feeling this way now. I have been pushing things aside again. In the past, i used to just flare up or sulk at the first instance. Now i push things aside and yeah.. looks like nothing really happened. But when im back to face myself again, everything surfaces.
I Am not sure how i should go about handling my life.
Sulking at the first instance is no good. Not talking about it is bad either. How to strike a balance? AGAIN.. INDIFFERENCE. YEah.. let it snowball. Snowball. Im losing it again. Im losing the vision. Im losing sight. In the midst of these tough challenges, i dun think i can pull through. Not for long. Not for long.
I AM TIRED.
VERY TIRED.
I dunno what i am looking for. Im not sure if this is what i want. Im not sure.. Im beginning to be not sure. That IS BAD. I think im losing my gripe. Im not going to hold so tightly anymore. I think i put in a lot of effort till now. Emotionally. Physically. Im going to jump into another extreme. At least for a little while. I cannot SEE IT anymore.
I have decided to post one more entry b4 I sleep tonight.
I think i should get the focus back to my life once again. Its no point leading a life that revolves around others' or that has somewhat influenced by others. Wanna do something, i should just go ahead. I should be giving myself priority. I shall be more firm. I think at the end of the day, everyone has their own schedule so no one will really wait for you or you know, adjust and fit you into theirs nicely. Its tiring when you are the one that is constantly trying to fit. Forget it. I shall just live it my way. It doesnt matter. Since i think at the end of the day, it DOESNT matter.
And why should i get myself all upset and unhappy. I should stay happy my way. There is a limit as to how much i can give. Or at least there is a limit when i dun see that I should be giving so much.
Im tired. As much as i dun want to. Its getting more disheartening. Be optimistic, be positive, only focus on the good. Ya? Maybe. Its easy when you only see good around you. Its easy when the bad is not so obvious.
Priority. Where?
I know why im feeling this way now. I have been pushing things aside again. In the past, i used to just flare up or sulk at the first instance. Now i push things aside and yeah.. looks like nothing really happened. But when im back to face myself again, everything surfaces.
I Am not sure how i should go about handling my life.
Sulking at the first instance is no good. Not talking about it is bad either. How to strike a balance? AGAIN.. INDIFFERENCE. YEah.. let it snowball. Snowball. Im losing it again. Im losing the vision. Im losing sight. In the midst of these tough challenges, i dun think i can pull through. Not for long. Not for long.
I AM TIRED.
VERY TIRED.
I dunno what i am looking for. Im not sure if this is what i want. Im not sure.. Im beginning to be not sure. That IS BAD. I think im losing my gripe. Im not going to hold so tightly anymore. I think i put in a lot of effort till now. Emotionally. Physically. Im going to jump into another extreme. At least for a little while. I cannot SEE IT anymore.
HATE HOUSEWORK
My table is still in a mess. Cant seem to find enough discipline to get myself to get ready for a new term. Maybe cos the previous term was just less than a fortnight ago.
Sniffing more and more.. blocked nose. Arggh.
Went to Sakae AGain... The SAME outlet. Had the same tempura udon. I love it. The soup was yummy. Was a great staple to go with salmon kama with a lot of soy sauce wasabi and of course, the tempura. YEay.. going for a long awaited Sakae buffet next friday. CAnt believe that Darryl didnt know about the student promotion at all. HAAH... I am looking forward to that. Bringing Daniele along... not going to bring tetsuya cos he thinks that the sushi here is not SUSHI. Its very different from Japan. So i doubt he will enjoy it.
I bought a " The Aphrodisiac" from Big O. Very yummy chocolate truffle. Its the kind that will make you happy one... After eating that is. NOt because it is aphrodisiac.. but cos the chocolate is nice. AHahah.. I had to eat so discreetly at Intro Bar cos we wanted to enjoy some red wine and hopefully our cake. But who knows, no outside food and drinks are allowed. So.. well.. i shall spare you guys with the details. but like KFC.. it is "FINGER LICKING GOOD".
Saw alex on the train. Then i realised. The Alex from my home right.. i havent meet him for quite some time. Hey.. I havent even visited his new place. And baby and nelle... And mum... and sis... all these people i need to spend more time with them.
Ok... Next next TUE is "THE DAY". Im going to SIGN IT.
MC Said.. " DUN REGRET AR!"
Woah... Always like that scare people... ( I realised my english is getting more and more singaporean style le... die... it is very much worst than b4 i left for bkk, maybe cos i was so deprived for so long, now i really treasure our singlish..)
Anyway.. I realised that im the kind of person who cant just sleep when im tired, like dun need to do anythign else or dun wanna do anything else but sleep, and just eat when im hungry. Think i think too much. And i view sleeping as a mere waste of time other than replienishing the energy. Im not saying it is not essential, im saying that Im willing to sacrifice my sleep for a lot of things. I value emotional indulgence and spiritual nourishment a lot. And so i hope that everyday b4 i sleep, i am emotionally and spritually sound. At least, i try to be. Yes, physically tired. But Sometimes if i wanna blog, it doesnt matter how tired i am, i blog. If i wanna read something, i will go read. Even to chat. I know that is not good for health and skin but i cant just come home, shower, sleep. YEs i spend a lot of time on my lappie in this VIrtual world but this world is an imaginary world that is pretty real and at least, it is another world where i can put some of my thoughts in perspective.
I really wish i can just dun think so much. And I HATE messy tables! ARRGGHH. ANd I HATE IRONING TOO. I want a maid next time. FOR SURE.
I DO the cooking. I do the markting. EVERYKIND of washing and IROning is to be left to the maid. I HATE to iron. ARRGGHH.. AND I HATE HOUSEWORK! HATE IT! WASTE OF TIME. total drain of my energy.
Sniffing more and more.. blocked nose. Arggh.
Went to Sakae AGain... The SAME outlet. Had the same tempura udon. I love it. The soup was yummy. Was a great staple to go with salmon kama with a lot of soy sauce wasabi and of course, the tempura. YEay.. going for a long awaited Sakae buffet next friday. CAnt believe that Darryl didnt know about the student promotion at all. HAAH... I am looking forward to that. Bringing Daniele along... not going to bring tetsuya cos he thinks that the sushi here is not SUSHI. Its very different from Japan. So i doubt he will enjoy it.
I bought a " The Aphrodisiac" from Big O. Very yummy chocolate truffle. Its the kind that will make you happy one... After eating that is. NOt because it is aphrodisiac.. but cos the chocolate is nice. AHahah.. I had to eat so discreetly at Intro Bar cos we wanted to enjoy some red wine and hopefully our cake. But who knows, no outside food and drinks are allowed. So.. well.. i shall spare you guys with the details. but like KFC.. it is "FINGER LICKING GOOD".
Saw alex on the train. Then i realised. The Alex from my home right.. i havent meet him for quite some time. Hey.. I havent even visited his new place. And baby and nelle... And mum... and sis... all these people i need to spend more time with them.
Ok... Next next TUE is "THE DAY". Im going to SIGN IT.
MC Said.. " DUN REGRET AR!"
Woah... Always like that scare people... ( I realised my english is getting more and more singaporean style le... die... it is very much worst than b4 i left for bkk, maybe cos i was so deprived for so long, now i really treasure our singlish..)
Anyway.. I realised that im the kind of person who cant just sleep when im tired, like dun need to do anythign else or dun wanna do anything else but sleep, and just eat when im hungry. Think i think too much. And i view sleeping as a mere waste of time other than replienishing the energy. Im not saying it is not essential, im saying that Im willing to sacrifice my sleep for a lot of things. I value emotional indulgence and spiritual nourishment a lot. And so i hope that everyday b4 i sleep, i am emotionally and spritually sound. At least, i try to be. Yes, physically tired. But Sometimes if i wanna blog, it doesnt matter how tired i am, i blog. If i wanna read something, i will go read. Even to chat. I know that is not good for health and skin but i cant just come home, shower, sleep. YEs i spend a lot of time on my lappie in this VIrtual world but this world is an imaginary world that is pretty real and at least, it is another world where i can put some of my thoughts in perspective.
I really wish i can just dun think so much. And I HATE messy tables! ARRGGHH. ANd I HATE IRONING TOO. I want a maid next time. FOR SURE.
I DO the cooking. I do the markting. EVERYKIND of washing and IROning is to be left to the maid. I HATE to iron. ARRGGHH.. AND I HATE HOUSEWORK! HATE IT! WASTE OF TIME. total drain of my energy.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Optimistically Calm
What a friday I had.
I woke up this morning with a bad nose.. flu. Think I caught a cold yesterday cos i didnt cover myself well with the blanket. Weak immune i had. SIGH.
I love my leadership class. I like the way it is conducted and I enjoy reading about the kind of leadership skills and traits that were in the book, and the movies he showed us. I love movies. I have always loved movies. These days, a lot of my professors have been showing us movies. I watched a movie on Enron on wed night. Today i watch parts of Apollo 13 and about half of Shackleton. I enjoyed every bit of these movies. So nice...
This semester is a far cry from my summer term. I was desperate, tired, depressed, stressed up, hard pressed for time that my learning wasnt thorough and I basically had a depressing time.
This semester, the only course that i had problems with was my corporate reporting. After much struggling, i have decided to leave Lee and went to Orput. Yeah.. I immediately felt a lot better though Lee is a pretty good prof but Lee has a lot of assignments and work. But the reason why i dropped his class cos i felt totally out of place and that he emphasized time and time again that the course is only meant for accounting students. And i was in a class of freaking year 2 acct students. Sigh.. they are all so young and... .. ok, i cant come up with a word but i just feel that they are just TOO YOUNG and that i really felt very out of place.
Strategy was fun though it does take some effort to realise what the prof is actually saying as his korean accent is pretty strong.
SBM is exceptionally inspiring and motivational. It is yet another strategic class. The courses i do this sem are rather MACRO- view kind of courses except for corp reporting. BUt i enjoy them cos i am a very MAcro person. I cant see the micro parts until i see the macro picture.
BUT.. I have a ton of readings and essays to write.
A whole series of career talks and networking session is coming up. I need to update my resume but im not sure if i should start applying for jobs now. Cos i really cannot find another job as of now that is better that the offer. I mean even if it is a big bank, i dunno what i really wanna be and i dunno which position fits me well, or rather, i fit well. And the prospects and all... SO... Im not sure if i should just save all that trouble and stick to what i have.
Had a wonderful dinner with C at Sakae. Went to chill @ Pcc after that. My hazelnut steam milk is still my HOT PICK.
Ok.. I think im running a fever... Better go
I woke up this morning with a bad nose.. flu. Think I caught a cold yesterday cos i didnt cover myself well with the blanket. Weak immune i had. SIGH.
I love my leadership class. I like the way it is conducted and I enjoy reading about the kind of leadership skills and traits that were in the book, and the movies he showed us. I love movies. I have always loved movies. These days, a lot of my professors have been showing us movies. I watched a movie on Enron on wed night. Today i watch parts of Apollo 13 and about half of Shackleton. I enjoyed every bit of these movies. So nice...
This semester is a far cry from my summer term. I was desperate, tired, depressed, stressed up, hard pressed for time that my learning wasnt thorough and I basically had a depressing time.
This semester, the only course that i had problems with was my corporate reporting. After much struggling, i have decided to leave Lee and went to Orput. Yeah.. I immediately felt a lot better though Lee is a pretty good prof but Lee has a lot of assignments and work. But the reason why i dropped his class cos i felt totally out of place and that he emphasized time and time again that the course is only meant for accounting students. And i was in a class of freaking year 2 acct students. Sigh.. they are all so young and... .. ok, i cant come up with a word but i just feel that they are just TOO YOUNG and that i really felt very out of place.
Strategy was fun though it does take some effort to realise what the prof is actually saying as his korean accent is pretty strong.
SBM is exceptionally inspiring and motivational. It is yet another strategic class. The courses i do this sem are rather MACRO- view kind of courses except for corp reporting. BUt i enjoy them cos i am a very MAcro person. I cant see the micro parts until i see the macro picture.
BUT.. I have a ton of readings and essays to write.
A whole series of career talks and networking session is coming up. I need to update my resume but im not sure if i should start applying for jobs now. Cos i really cannot find another job as of now that is better that the offer. I mean even if it is a big bank, i dunno what i really wanna be and i dunno which position fits me well, or rather, i fit well. And the prospects and all... SO... Im not sure if i should just save all that trouble and stick to what i have.
Had a wonderful dinner with C at Sakae. Went to chill @ Pcc after that. My hazelnut steam milk is still my HOT PICK.
Ok.. I think im running a fever... Better go
Friday, August 25, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Freedom of speech
Anyway, This is my blog. I post what i want.
Not happy? Quit reading my blog.
Was thinking about the Getaway trip this weekend. Cant wait man. I need a getaway. After the intense summer and all the unhappiness and stress, its time i bring my soul for a revitalising SPA.
Thank you everyone who was there for me dearly this whole time. THANK YOU. WM, SY especially... and of course all the babes and pals who dropped by to ask if i was fine. Thank you. The summer was real intense. I dunno how to describe to you guys but i really felt like i just "died" and now I am trying to live again.
I think my motivation is coming back. Im going to get my happiness back too. No one can make me unhappy. I will make sure i stay happy.... No matter what... cos this is my life. And i shall not allow myself to be affected by anyting negative anymore. At least i will make sure that i dun. Its no point. Time is precious, so is health. No point brooding over some spilt milk. MOVE ON...
Great supper tonight. Missed the gals outing though. Wonder how things are at Double O for the 4 girlies... ahah.
Not happy? Quit reading my blog.
Was thinking about the Getaway trip this weekend. Cant wait man. I need a getaway. After the intense summer and all the unhappiness and stress, its time i bring my soul for a revitalising SPA.
Thank you everyone who was there for me dearly this whole time. THANK YOU. WM, SY especially... and of course all the babes and pals who dropped by to ask if i was fine. Thank you. The summer was real intense. I dunno how to describe to you guys but i really felt like i just "died" and now I am trying to live again.
I think my motivation is coming back. Im going to get my happiness back too. No one can make me unhappy. I will make sure i stay happy.... No matter what... cos this is my life. And i shall not allow myself to be affected by anyting negative anymore. At least i will make sure that i dun. Its no point. Time is precious, so is health. No point brooding over some spilt milk. MOVE ON...
Great supper tonight. Missed the gals outing though. Wonder how things are at Double O for the 4 girlies... ahah.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Very angry.
I have a whole closet of unhappiness that i wanna get rid off. Everything started from the beginning of my summer term. Work was great b4 that. Glitches came and went non stop after that. I kept riding on an emotional roller coaster. All these killed the motivation and excitement i held for school and my singapore life. I need a getaway soon. I think i might be able to do that without getting out of singapore. If not a simple trip to anywhere will do too.
Im glad i am taking 3.5 courses now. I definitely cannot go back to work for long like that. I will be burnt out very soon. I need a trip. Im not happy now. Not happy that my grad trip is not settled. Im not happy that i havent got my grades for corp finance. Not happy that I have to start working soon. Not happy that my room is in a mess. Not happy that i havent showered. Not happy that I simply cannot lift myself up to do anything. Not happy that i cant do things as I wished.
I need to CHANGE. I cannot allow myself to stay this way.
I dun want...
YES, then go do it right? Why stay here and sulk? WHy complain? Nothing is ever going to change.
NO MORE.
OUT.
Im glad i am taking 3.5 courses now. I definitely cannot go back to work for long like that. I will be burnt out very soon. I need a trip. Im not happy now. Not happy that my grad trip is not settled. Im not happy that i havent got my grades for corp finance. Not happy that I have to start working soon. Not happy that my room is in a mess. Not happy that i havent showered. Not happy that I simply cannot lift myself up to do anything. Not happy that i cant do things as I wished.
I need to CHANGE. I cannot allow myself to stay this way.
I dun want...
YES, then go do it right? Why stay here and sulk? WHy complain? Nothing is ever going to change.
NO MORE.
OUT.
Monday, August 21, 2006
New Day New Term New beginning
I have learnt my lesson well. The one formulae fits all theory doesnt work. And i almost stepped on shit again... the sticky and smelly kind. Thank god i wasnt alone. And at least i know im not the insane one. Otherwise i will start doubting myself again. No more. That is it.
....like what a drunk person always claim, " Im not drunk!"...
So... im going to be a good girl and listen to the one same advice that everyone is telling me to: Be indifferent... and so... indifferent i shall be. The ability to think straight is very important. Although sometimes i do admire some people's special ability to skew everything to what they wanna believe when things are not that way and is not true. And so.. that marks the end of one chapter of my live. Good. Over. Out.
First day of a new term. I kind of miss this atmosphere... AHAH... unlike the gloomy summer term. i getta meet more people... talk talk and chat chat...
Im not sure if i should go bid for IB. After summer. Im drained. I just wanna relax now. No point putting myself thru one more course, means one more stress, one more project, one more exam. No point. Cos i am not happy this way.
Bee's video clip is really therapeutic. Im so addicted to watching it. So cute baby!!
Waiting for di di to grow and so i can play with him.
Im tired. SO much to clear up.
Tom will be a better day...
....like what a drunk person always claim, " Im not drunk!"...
So... im going to be a good girl and listen to the one same advice that everyone is telling me to: Be indifferent... and so... indifferent i shall be. The ability to think straight is very important. Although sometimes i do admire some people's special ability to skew everything to what they wanna believe when things are not that way and is not true. And so.. that marks the end of one chapter of my live. Good. Over. Out.
First day of a new term. I kind of miss this atmosphere... AHAH... unlike the gloomy summer term. i getta meet more people... talk talk and chat chat...
Im not sure if i should go bid for IB. After summer. Im drained. I just wanna relax now. No point putting myself thru one more course, means one more stress, one more project, one more exam. No point. Cos i am not happy this way.
Bee's video clip is really therapeutic. Im so addicted to watching it. So cute baby!!
Waiting for di di to grow and so i can play with him.
Im tired. SO much to clear up.
Tom will be a better day...
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Breathing...
I had a wonderful lunch gathering today! Its been a while since the whole family got together. Including the new addition to our family. But baby doesnt have the nice baby smell... dunno why. I tried sniffing and sniffing. Dun have le. And cos i still havent got my cam back... i missed the opportunity to take a family picture.
I already have a plan for my graduation next year. As in after commencement. Going to book a nice restaurant, i shall bring the whole family to celebrate my graduation. And i would want to have a few nice family picture taken. Im glad i will be working first. And i have 7 months to save up for that big dinner and family photo. HAHA... I cant wait. I think everyone too!
After such a torturous Summer term, I began to look at my life in singapore with a different light. I have also changed my attitude and thinking towards a lot of things. My outlook on life is getting a little more greyish. But FRET NOT!! I will keep it under control. All the 4 months i spent in bkk cannot be ruined in 1 month just like that right? I hope so.
I had quite a fun but tiring time yesterday bringing DA-NIE-LE around. Him and his roomies.. his roomies consist of another Italian and 2 belgium guys... Call them Belgies?? AHAH... Well... culture shock yesterday! Sy and I and i think for them too.. But nonetheless, it was fun!
I miss my cheese fries!! Yummy. It was a hearty KFC meal!! Thank you!
Today, Sy and i gave golf a miss. Terrible. I dunno how to explain... Hiaz.. I really enjoyed golf and I wanna get my green pass. SIgh.. but we seem to be at the whims of his moods. That is not right and not good. Think one by one they are dropping the class. But i want my green pass!!! ARRGGHHH..
I had a wonderful retail therapy session yesterday and today. Bought a pair of nice sandles which someone insists was ugly but i really like it! Its really nice... SY agrees at least. AHHA...
Today, i manage to get 2 tops and some straps and this thing to FILE my dead skin away.. Terrible dead skin. This is physical evidence of how fast the pace of life have been for me.. Literally. Angry..
ANyhow... I had a good time. Now its time to clear the mess in my room. Get everything tidy and get ready for school tom!
Time to start a notebook le!
I already have a plan for my graduation next year. As in after commencement. Going to book a nice restaurant, i shall bring the whole family to celebrate my graduation. And i would want to have a few nice family picture taken. Im glad i will be working first. And i have 7 months to save up for that big dinner and family photo. HAHA... I cant wait. I think everyone too!
After such a torturous Summer term, I began to look at my life in singapore with a different light. I have also changed my attitude and thinking towards a lot of things. My outlook on life is getting a little more greyish. But FRET NOT!! I will keep it under control. All the 4 months i spent in bkk cannot be ruined in 1 month just like that right? I hope so.
I had quite a fun but tiring time yesterday bringing DA-NIE-LE around. Him and his roomies.. his roomies consist of another Italian and 2 belgium guys... Call them Belgies?? AHAH... Well... culture shock yesterday! Sy and I and i think for them too.. But nonetheless, it was fun!
I miss my cheese fries!! Yummy. It was a hearty KFC meal!! Thank you!
Today, Sy and i gave golf a miss. Terrible. I dunno how to explain... Hiaz.. I really enjoyed golf and I wanna get my green pass. SIgh.. but we seem to be at the whims of his moods. That is not right and not good. Think one by one they are dropping the class. But i want my green pass!!! ARRGGHHH..
I had a wonderful retail therapy session yesterday and today. Bought a pair of nice sandles which someone insists was ugly but i really like it! Its really nice... SY agrees at least. AHHA...
Today, i manage to get 2 tops and some straps and this thing to FILE my dead skin away.. Terrible dead skin. This is physical evidence of how fast the pace of life have been for me.. Literally. Angry..
ANyhow... I had a good time. Now its time to clear the mess in my room. Get everything tidy and get ready for school tom!
Time to start a notebook le!
Friday, August 18, 2006
ITS OVER!!!!
Yes... my DRAMA MAMA SUMMER TERM has finally come to an end. Im totally drained at this point of time. Physically im ok. Emotionally i think the roller coaster and strains was enough to render me "brainless" for the coming few days. So if i happen to have a laggin system in that i dun reply your questions properly or when i begin to display wierd signs of insanity, please pardon me.
Was a rather tough semester. Given a choice.. i wouldnt have taken 2 summer courses. This is real madness. And now, i need to worry about my grades. Hiaz...
Ok... PUT all NEGATIVE ENERGY ASIDE!!
I shall PARTY MY 2 days of civilisation as a Free-GIRL. No work. NO school. Yayee...
Time to visit Baby...
Time to spend time with Baby...
Time to Love BABY!!!
Think i should bring nelle nelle out to play also. I saw a video clip of her when she was like 1 year-2 years old. SUPER CUTE!!... I miss the nelle nelle back then so much! Those were the days when i will miss her everyday. That was how cute she was. I still remember.. when i was still in VJ those days. HAHA. She is Still cute lah.. but not as cute.. haha
Hmm... I have better help my buddy too.. Have left him to fend with his other fellow italian since he arrived on mon and i better do some compensation. AHAH
CAnt WAIT for the presentation to end... the last group.
YAY!!!!
Was a rather tough semester. Given a choice.. i wouldnt have taken 2 summer courses. This is real madness. And now, i need to worry about my grades. Hiaz...
Ok... PUT all NEGATIVE ENERGY ASIDE!!
I shall PARTY MY 2 days of civilisation as a Free-GIRL. No work. NO school. Yayee...
Time to visit Baby...
Time to spend time with Baby...
Time to Love BABY!!!
Think i should bring nelle nelle out to play also. I saw a video clip of her when she was like 1 year-2 years old. SUPER CUTE!!... I miss the nelle nelle back then so much! Those were the days when i will miss her everyday. That was how cute she was. I still remember.. when i was still in VJ those days. HAHA. She is Still cute lah.. but not as cute.. haha
Hmm... I have better help my buddy too.. Have left him to fend with his other fellow italian since he arrived on mon and i better do some compensation. AHAH
CAnt WAIT for the presentation to end... the last group.
YAY!!!!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Food for Soul #2
Im alone in this cold GRS in school. The time reads 8:40pm. I almost died of boredom for the marketing text can only fill my brain appetite and nothing else. And since im studying for the Quiz, the appetite isnt good today. My soul appetite was huge though. Im addicted to the Book "Tuesday" but i cant go back to it till i get on the train on my return journey home.
And so, having been away from the TV for many days... I suffered a rather bad withdrawal syndrome today. I tried to steal a glance from the TV at KOPITIAM but ten minutes was about all that i can get. Been trying to read the papers but the school only has boring papers like the financial times and business time. I suddenly crave for the !LIFE section. CLEO Magazine too.
Anyway, I turned to my lappie for help after i kept reading the same line in my notes multiple times and nothing seemed into this tiny head of mine anymore.
I watched UTADA HIKARU's concert. I watched Hotel California's live video three times. I had my headphones on.. and there... I managed to find some food for my soul. Really therapeutic. Refreshed! Revitalised!
I am pretty motivated to go take that guitar out from my storeroom and start headin for YAmaha or something. I shant let my guitar depreciate in that closet. I wanna be able to play and enjoy the peace, the love and the engagement that the EAGLES had in the concert. I want to.
And I realised one thing too. Right now, Im happy that i have found my way out and also, that I am now more determined to lead my life by tending to my emotional, spiritual and physical needs independently. I know and have the resources available. And i shall be the one tending to all these needs. No point waiting.
In services marketing we learn:
Do not overpromise, cos chances are, you will underdeliver.
This not only works in business. It works in life too.
And so, having been away from the TV for many days... I suffered a rather bad withdrawal syndrome today. I tried to steal a glance from the TV at KOPITIAM but ten minutes was about all that i can get. Been trying to read the papers but the school only has boring papers like the financial times and business time. I suddenly crave for the !LIFE section. CLEO Magazine too.
Anyway, I turned to my lappie for help after i kept reading the same line in my notes multiple times and nothing seemed into this tiny head of mine anymore.
I watched UTADA HIKARU's concert. I watched Hotel California's live video three times. I had my headphones on.. and there... I managed to find some food for my soul. Really therapeutic. Refreshed! Revitalised!
I am pretty motivated to go take that guitar out from my storeroom and start headin for YAmaha or something. I shant let my guitar depreciate in that closet. I wanna be able to play and enjoy the peace, the love and the engagement that the EAGLES had in the concert. I want to.
And I realised one thing too. Right now, Im happy that i have found my way out and also, that I am now more determined to lead my life by tending to my emotional, spiritual and physical needs independently. I know and have the resources available. And i shall be the one tending to all these needs. No point waiting.
In services marketing we learn:
Do not overpromise, cos chances are, you will underdeliver.
This not only works in business. It works in life too.
I happened to pick this book up just b4 i left my room this morning. I instantly fell in love with it. Easy to read and just nice for this haywired brain of mine now. Its good for the soul too.
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" U Die La"
AHAHahah.. Those were the exact words Yao has to offer after i told him that i have a paper tom and an assignment due tom. And Fri another paper and another presentation. SO enouraging of him.
Im Freezing in the GSR now. WOah.. very cold. So angeery... I simply refused to take the umbrella this morning b4 i left the house cos i thought that all those days when i predicted it didnt rain came true will make today no exception but i was so wrong. Was raining cats and dogs after i reached raffles city. I gave myself sometime. dEcided to go get bread from my fav bakery hoping that the rain would sort of stop. But it didnt. So i have no choice but to head for GIODARNO to get umbrellas... my $6!!
Went for a very constructive review with SK. Now i understand my assignment better and WACC for the corp finance part. And guess what... halfway thru the session, the free rider smsed me to ask if i know how to do the assigment. FIRST AND FOREMOST, i think i am already doing her a great deal by not informing the prof about her disappearing acts and her true courage of carrying a "bo CHUP" attitude on this project which constitues 35% of the whole course. After the presentation yesterday, she is immediately out of my field of vision. I dun regard her existance anymore. Now i know why Yao keeps complaining about people from his batch. There... Same BREED. The school had better look into the kind of entry requirements and selection criteria they hold for recruitment. There is a reason why we are SMU. Dun make us lose the competitive advantage by getting in a bunch of nerds who thinks that projects are those useless things we used to do back in those days when we were in uniforms, writing on vanguard sheets and cutting styrofoams. True, some projects are not that useful. But the attitude is simply not acceptable. Especially in SMU. She is bound to get it real hard and real bad one day. I shall not dirty my hands and waste any effort on these kind of people. and anyway.. that is not the point. DO I LOOK LIKE I WILL HELP A FREE RIDER, WHO DIDNT DO HER PART FOR THE PROJECT AND BECAUSE SHE DIDNT COVER HER PART AND WE GOT BOMBARDED FOR QUESTIONS PERTAINING MAINLY TO HER PART, WITH HER ASSIGNMENT? I MIGHT AS WELL GO OPEN A CHARITY SERVICE ORGANISATION. AND SHE IS ONLY YEAR 2. FROM NOW on.. I shall have a stringent requirement for the selection of my groupmates. year 2s are my last priority. Ok.. i know this is a fallacy cos it is hasty generalisation but i will make sure i dun get myself into this kind of shit again. 3 years in smu. I never see this kind of free riders b4.
ARRGGHHH
Im Freezing in the GSR now. WOah.. very cold. So angeery... I simply refused to take the umbrella this morning b4 i left the house cos i thought that all those days when i predicted it didnt rain came true will make today no exception but i was so wrong. Was raining cats and dogs after i reached raffles city. I gave myself sometime. dEcided to go get bread from my fav bakery hoping that the rain would sort of stop. But it didnt. So i have no choice but to head for GIODARNO to get umbrellas... my $6!!
Went for a very constructive review with SK. Now i understand my assignment better and WACC for the corp finance part. And guess what... halfway thru the session, the free rider smsed me to ask if i know how to do the assigment. FIRST AND FOREMOST, i think i am already doing her a great deal by not informing the prof about her disappearing acts and her true courage of carrying a "bo CHUP" attitude on this project which constitues 35% of the whole course. After the presentation yesterday, she is immediately out of my field of vision. I dun regard her existance anymore. Now i know why Yao keeps complaining about people from his batch. There... Same BREED. The school had better look into the kind of entry requirements and selection criteria they hold for recruitment. There is a reason why we are SMU. Dun make us lose the competitive advantage by getting in a bunch of nerds who thinks that projects are those useless things we used to do back in those days when we were in uniforms, writing on vanguard sheets and cutting styrofoams. True, some projects are not that useful. But the attitude is simply not acceptable. Especially in SMU. She is bound to get it real hard and real bad one day. I shall not dirty my hands and waste any effort on these kind of people. and anyway.. that is not the point. DO I LOOK LIKE I WILL HELP A FREE RIDER, WHO DIDNT DO HER PART FOR THE PROJECT AND BECAUSE SHE DIDNT COVER HER PART AND WE GOT BOMBARDED FOR QUESTIONS PERTAINING MAINLY TO HER PART, WITH HER ASSIGNMENT? I MIGHT AS WELL GO OPEN A CHARITY SERVICE ORGANISATION. AND SHE IS ONLY YEAR 2. FROM NOW on.. I shall have a stringent requirement for the selection of my groupmates. year 2s are my last priority. Ok.. i know this is a fallacy cos it is hasty generalisation but i will make sure i dun get myself into this kind of shit again. 3 years in smu. I never see this kind of free riders b4.
ARRGGHHH
I hate free riders
Im excited about my 2 new specs that is in the making at the moment. YEs.. 2. AHAH
All thanks to my beloved buddy this summer... SY!!!! I was lamenting to her one day about how i would like to make a few more pairs of glasses so that I dun have to look ugly on days when i think i should give my eyes a rest from contacts.. and how i think nice specs is important for travelling also... Cos both boeing and airbus discriminates contact lenses. Anyway.. she she told me about the optical shop in school. She said its pretty cheap to make glasses there. So i asked her how much she paid for her specs. She went $400++.. I WAS LIKE WHAT????!!!??
For a moment.. the picture of a radish appeared.. ahah.. SY must have been ripped off. WOah.. and anyway, because she spent so much on a pair of specs, there is this cash rebate voucher of $45 that she received. At first i was thinking.. such a place that rips people off, that $45 is prolly not going to worth much. Then SY said it was cos of her high astigmatism, that's why this is the usual price she pays for a pair of glasses and this price is already considered cheap. Man.. I didnt know that her specs are so darn EX.
ANyway.. After dinner today, while i was still on my perpetual adrenalin high.. Sy and I went to walk around WAtsons and the basement in school... And so we decided to check out the optical shop. To cut long story short, i used her voucher, got a pair of specs at $62 and then if i get this other pair that is on promotion, i only pay $49 for that second pair. So in short.. I paid $111 for 2 paris of chio glasses. Happy!! Those frames are on a 30% discount, and cos we are SMU students, another 20% discount.. and they are having this promotion, some free lens.. but need to pay for dunno what dunno what.. anyway.. the final price is reasonable and this is a long term investment.
Wait to see my pics k? When im more sane.
these few days.. I work for more than 18 hours. I am very tired but as long as i dun go to the bed, i can stay awake and work. The problem comes when its time to get up. I struggle alot. A LOT. I cant get up. I just cant. However, eventually after i did, my day spins off.. Im awake again.. im working again.. non stop.. I hope i dun fall asleep halfway during my paper one of these days.. THAT IS ABSOLUTELY WRONG TIMING. Ok. I need to stop drinking Teh C... Maybe that is what that has been keeping me up. Or maybe i should start drinking coffee...
All thanks to my beloved buddy this summer... SY!!!! I was lamenting to her one day about how i would like to make a few more pairs of glasses so that I dun have to look ugly on days when i think i should give my eyes a rest from contacts.. and how i think nice specs is important for travelling also... Cos both boeing and airbus discriminates contact lenses. Anyway.. she she told me about the optical shop in school. She said its pretty cheap to make glasses there. So i asked her how much she paid for her specs. She went $400++.. I WAS LIKE WHAT????!!!??
For a moment.. the picture of a radish appeared.. ahah.. SY must have been ripped off. WOah.. and anyway, because she spent so much on a pair of specs, there is this cash rebate voucher of $45 that she received. At first i was thinking.. such a place that rips people off, that $45 is prolly not going to worth much. Then SY said it was cos of her high astigmatism, that's why this is the usual price she pays for a pair of glasses and this price is already considered cheap. Man.. I didnt know that her specs are so darn EX.
ANyway.. After dinner today, while i was still on my perpetual adrenalin high.. Sy and I went to walk around WAtsons and the basement in school... And so we decided to check out the optical shop. To cut long story short, i used her voucher, got a pair of specs at $62 and then if i get this other pair that is on promotion, i only pay $49 for that second pair. So in short.. I paid $111 for 2 paris of chio glasses. Happy!! Those frames are on a 30% discount, and cos we are SMU students, another 20% discount.. and they are having this promotion, some free lens.. but need to pay for dunno what dunno what.. anyway.. the final price is reasonable and this is a long term investment.
Wait to see my pics k? When im more sane.
these few days.. I work for more than 18 hours. I am very tired but as long as i dun go to the bed, i can stay awake and work. The problem comes when its time to get up. I struggle alot. A LOT. I cant get up. I just cant. However, eventually after i did, my day spins off.. Im awake again.. im working again.. non stop.. I hope i dun fall asleep halfway during my paper one of these days.. THAT IS ABSOLUTELY WRONG TIMING. Ok. I need to stop drinking Teh C... Maybe that is what that has been keeping me up. Or maybe i should start drinking coffee...
Sunday, August 13, 2006
"Nerdiest" Geek award goes to....
SHI!!!
Oh Man. Shi is back in a GSR in School mugging non stop on a SUNDAY. ARRGGHH!!!
Im so tired and super lack of sleep that i actually dozed off in the toilet just now for 2 min. Cant imagine right? Yeah. It happened.
Went for golf today. Took a shower at the club and headed for lunch and then school with SY. I have been stuffing myself with food unknowingly cos i guess when you are stress and you know that you need to study but you need a little breaktoo and you cant really afford to have a break without a valid reason... then TADA... eating is a valid reason and therefore i get a break! Too many breaks. too much food. SY and I are stuffing ourselves to death in this GSR.
What a luck! I should have told the auntie i wanted my 3-in-1 from Mr Bean to be less sweet and not NO SWEET!! It tastes terrible.
I dunno how my week is going to be cos i seriously am working very hard and putting every single minute and second to use that I am now in an adrenalin surge. Though Im really stretched, I am happy. Cos I have friends there for me and SY is definitely a nice mugging partner.. eating partner... crapping partner... shopping partner.. AHAHHA...
Im just taking everything in stride now..
Hope that all things go well!! HAVE TO BE. I HAVE To!!
CAnt wait for the week to end. This coming sunday i will be playing myself silly. I already promised myself. Sleep to my hearts' content. HAve fun. Laugh and laugh. Play and play.. YAYee... In the meantime.. Mugg!!
Oh Man. Shi is back in a GSR in School mugging non stop on a SUNDAY. ARRGGHH!!!
Im so tired and super lack of sleep that i actually dozed off in the toilet just now for 2 min. Cant imagine right? Yeah. It happened.
Went for golf today. Took a shower at the club and headed for lunch and then school with SY. I have been stuffing myself with food unknowingly cos i guess when you are stress and you know that you need to study but you need a little breaktoo and you cant really afford to have a break without a valid reason... then TADA... eating is a valid reason and therefore i get a break! Too many breaks. too much food. SY and I are stuffing ourselves to death in this GSR.
What a luck! I should have told the auntie i wanted my 3-in-1 from Mr Bean to be less sweet and not NO SWEET!! It tastes terrible.
I dunno how my week is going to be cos i seriously am working very hard and putting every single minute and second to use that I am now in an adrenalin surge. Though Im really stretched, I am happy. Cos I have friends there for me and SY is definitely a nice mugging partner.. eating partner... crapping partner... shopping partner.. AHAHHA...
Im just taking everything in stride now..
Hope that all things go well!! HAVE TO BE. I HAVE To!!
CAnt wait for the week to end. This coming sunday i will be playing myself silly. I already promised myself. Sleep to my hearts' content. HAve fun. Laugh and laugh. Play and play.. YAYee... In the meantime.. Mugg!!
Friday, August 11, 2006
*nerd* II
This is a friday night. ONLY a NERD sits in a GSR on a friday night. Shi is in a GSR on a friday night.
=> SHI is a nerd.
HAHA.. Peeps... Im happy le. SO many of you have expressed ya encouragements and support for me. How can I not be touched? How can I 辜负all ya care, concern and support?? And so, with a lighter mood, RELAXED totally, Shi is ready to face all the work.
SY is not around today. Today im happy. Dun get me wrong, Im not saying SY not around therefore im happy. HAHA.. Maybe cos today i have ZERO project meetings. That is worth a celebration. And so. Shi celebrates!! WITH STRAWBERRY YAN YAN!!! I got it from 7-ELEVEN when i was on the way to pack my dinner from KOPITIAM in school.
Had become a vegetarian somehow. Not by choice. By default. AHAH... cos when you walk into the kopitiam, the vegetarian stall is the first you see. The dishes they sell are cheap and good. And for the same kind of food, why do you wanna spend $0.80 extra and get them from the CHAI FAN stall? Yong tau foo stall cannot beat my fav one @ lucky plaza so i dun bother eating since i wont have any form of satisfaction. The rest of the stall i have yet to patronise them ever since i came back from bkk. And during this period of time, food to me is just a necessity, not really an indulgence. So i dun wanna waste my energy wrecking my head on what to eat and SO.... I ended up with vegetarian food almost 90% of the time.
OK... going to study. Study.
Essence of Golf from David, our beloved instructor. b4 i go into that, let me do an into on him . AHAHa.. he is SUPER MAN!!! And he looks really really suave when he swings the club in that perfect position. His built, his posture and his golden brown skin in the sun makes him look so fine that woah.. every sunday i do feel like im dreaming. He is my mum's age. All the fine lines on his face seems to bring out that 男人味. Anyway, I see him as a fatherly figure. Many man of his age does look fatherly. The key difference here is he is the more handsome kind. AHAH
But this whole day dreaming kind of indulgence ends when he opens his mouth to criticise me. AHAHA... Below are a few of his favourite lines. Im sure belle, alvin, Sy and wongso will agree with me.
=> SHI is a nerd.
HAHA.. Peeps... Im happy le. SO many of you have expressed ya encouragements and support for me. How can I not be touched? How can I 辜负all ya care, concern and support?? And so, with a lighter mood, RELAXED totally, Shi is ready to face all the work.
SY is not around today. Today im happy. Dun get me wrong, Im not saying SY not around therefore im happy. HAHA.. Maybe cos today i have ZERO project meetings. That is worth a celebration. And so. Shi celebrates!! WITH STRAWBERRY YAN YAN!!! I got it from 7-ELEVEN when i was on the way to pack my dinner from KOPITIAM in school.
Had become a vegetarian somehow. Not by choice. By default. AHAH... cos when you walk into the kopitiam, the vegetarian stall is the first you see. The dishes they sell are cheap and good. And for the same kind of food, why do you wanna spend $0.80 extra and get them from the CHAI FAN stall? Yong tau foo stall cannot beat my fav one @ lucky plaza so i dun bother eating since i wont have any form of satisfaction. The rest of the stall i have yet to patronise them ever since i came back from bkk. And during this period of time, food to me is just a necessity, not really an indulgence. So i dun wanna waste my energy wrecking my head on what to eat and SO.... I ended up with vegetarian food almost 90% of the time.
OK... going to study. Study.
Essence of Golf from David, our beloved instructor. b4 i go into that, let me do an into on him . AHAHa.. he is SUPER MAN!!! And he looks really really suave when he swings the club in that perfect position. His built, his posture and his golden brown skin in the sun makes him look so fine that woah.. every sunday i do feel like im dreaming. He is my mum's age. All the fine lines on his face seems to bring out that 男人味. Anyway, I see him as a fatherly figure. Many man of his age does look fatherly. The key difference here is he is the more handsome kind. AHAH
But this whole day dreaming kind of indulgence ends when he opens his mouth to criticise me. AHAHA... Below are a few of his favourite lines. Im sure belle, alvin, Sy and wongso will agree with me.
- 不要用力的！！
- 没有用到手臂的力！！
- 你的肩膀不要硬！！！
- 放轻松！！
- 你门这样怎么样去golfcourse打
SY and i was just talking about it. HAHAHA... OF all the sports that i have played so far, this bloody golf ball is the one that flies the furthest till i cant even see it sometimes after hitting it. And here he is telling me that you do not use any strength when you whack. It took us about 4 hours of training for nothing except just full swing to finally find the momentum and the right posture plus coordination of our body to finally understand what he meant when he said dun use any strength. And for heavens' sake, he still apparently thinks that i purposely go lift my shoulders and refuse to relax them each time i play golf. My shoulders are born this way and if i were to slouch that is NOT NATURAL!!!
ANyway, i brought up golf cos I just found another reason to keep loving it. I feel like I have attained enlightenment from golf that is applicable to my life right now. When I really let go, relax, and just concentrate, with the right posture, I am finally able to swing the club and get the ball flying in the right way, further than when i tried so hard to hold on. And here I see it. I have to relax, concentrate. I will be able to move on well!!
Anyway, ok. Back to books. And perhaps a late night movie. Anyhow, I need to study and I am studying just fine!!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
*nerd*
Only a nerd stays in school till 10:00pm on a thursday night.
Shi is lagging so far behind her corp finance chapters. Next friday is Corp finance exam.
Shi is fighting hard to squeeze time out to do her mugging BUT, the corp finance projects and services marketing project SAID NO. and CF assignment and SM assignment AGREED.
Shi is still fighting... building up her muscles... training hard... constantly washing the eyeballs to prevent the contact lens from clouding up her image.
BUT...
Shi is glad that she has a wonderful companion SY who is there to listen to her whine and also to chit chat with her when she needs a break.
Shi is happy that the few people on MSN has been providing much help and encouragement whenever she needs them.
Shi is tired. Very sleepy.
Shi doesnt have a choice now that she has to go through all these.
BUT...
Its ok. SHI will make it. SOMEHOW...
JIA YOU SHI!!!
Shi is lagging so far behind her corp finance chapters. Next friday is Corp finance exam.
Shi is fighting hard to squeeze time out to do her mugging BUT, the corp finance projects and services marketing project SAID NO. and CF assignment and SM assignment AGREED.
Shi is still fighting... building up her muscles... training hard... constantly washing the eyeballs to prevent the contact lens from clouding up her image.
BUT...
Shi is glad that she has a wonderful companion SY who is there to listen to her whine and also to chit chat with her when she needs a break.
Shi is happy that the few people on MSN has been providing much help and encouragement whenever she needs them.
Shi is tired. Very sleepy.
Shi doesnt have a choice now that she has to go through all these.
BUT...
Its ok. SHI will make it. SOMEHOW...
JIA YOU SHI!!!
It sucks!
I am pretty much a reserved person even though i actually own this blog. I am not used to opening up my feelings and thought here openly. Im talking about certain thoughts and feelings from deep within. I need an avenue of relief. Yet, Im reluctant to write them here.
I need to set some expectations right. I need to delete some expectations too. I need to play this game my way such that no matter what, at the end of the day, I dun lose. I may not be better off, but i have to make sure that I am not worst off.
I feel like crying now. But you know, I am at this stage where I know i havent reached my tolerance limit. I can still go on. But i also know, somehow, that the limit is near. I can feel that sensation in my nose. My tear glands seem to have reacted slightly too though there wasnt really any sign of tears.
Where is my soulmate?
I need to set some expectations right. I need to delete some expectations too. I need to play this game my way such that no matter what, at the end of the day, I dun lose. I may not be better off, but i have to make sure that I am not worst off.
I feel like crying now. But you know, I am at this stage where I know i havent reached my tolerance limit. I can still go on. But i also know, somehow, that the limit is near. I can feel that sensation in my nose. My tear glands seem to have reacted slightly too though there wasnt really any sign of tears.
Where is my soulmate?
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
I guess I am thinking TOO MUCH
Yes. And I hate this feeling. This feeling of uncertainty. This feeling of insecurity. I have never been through something like that. This is the first time. Yet, other than accepting things the way it is, I dun see a second alternative. If i let this eat into me, nothing will come good of this. But I dun like it at all. I hate it in fact. Sometimes I feel that i shouldnt continue something that may not even lead to anything. But I told myself that I must not make the mistake that i used to in the past. And therefore, I am holding on.
Actually, there isnt anything that is clearly not right. But this feeling of uncertainty has not been attended to. I cant just leave it. Or maybe i should cos that is the only way. Keep my fingers crossed? How would I know? Man...
Something is eating my sanity and happiness away. I dun want to lose either. I wanna be happy... And I guess I have to control my thoughts in order that I keep myself happy. No one can make me unhappy if I wanna be happy. No one can make me happy If I stay on in this unhappy state.
the only things that are certain and real:
Work
Studies
Family
Focus on this 3, everything else should then fall in place.
I cant wait to graduate. I really cant.
Actually, there isnt anything that is clearly not right. But this feeling of uncertainty has not been attended to. I cant just leave it. Or maybe i should cos that is the only way. Keep my fingers crossed? How would I know? Man...
Something is eating my sanity and happiness away. I dun want to lose either. I wanna be happy... And I guess I have to control my thoughts in order that I keep myself happy. No one can make me unhappy if I wanna be happy. No one can make me happy If I stay on in this unhappy state.
the only things that are certain and real:
Work
Studies
Family
Focus on this 3, everything else should then fall in place.
I cant wait to graduate. I really cant.
Beary romantic movie... I love the plot and Sandra.. KEanu is getting old but still.. very attractive. I want a Lake House TOO!!
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Losing Time
I was at the library collecting free BiZ times and Financial times when i realised that they also have free 联合早报. Its been ages since i last read a proper Chinese dailies. I mean i used to browse thru the gossips and KPO news in 联合晚报, haha.. when mummy buys them but not the serious chinese paper. SO, after finishing my slides for my corp finance project, i decided to browse thru the 早报. WOah.. ahahah... the first news report at the front page was written by someone with almost exactly the same name as me.AHAH.. her name is 林婉诗. Mine is 林琬诗. HAHAH.... Cy was just asking me that day if i actually heard of people with my name. And TADA... this reporter's surename is so similar to mine. I suspect that if my mum were to put the "婉”instead of this “琬” for my "Wan".. ahha.. i would perhaps be a more feminine girl, more demure maybe.. and not so “王”. HAHA..
Ok. It is time to go for my sec school outing with Juan, Liu and Jiling... OOhh... and a nice chill out with Zhi and Pals.. ahahah... CAn see fireworks again!!
YEAY... HAPPY 41st Birthday Singapore!!
Ok. It is time to go for my sec school outing with Juan, Liu and Jiling... OOhh... and a nice chill out with Zhi and Pals.. ahahah... CAn see fireworks again!!
YEAY... HAPPY 41st Birthday Singapore!!
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Worn out Shi.. ahah.. check out our group pic that the prof requested. I thought my pic would look bad cos i really did minimal grooming that day, with nerd specs and all plus I was totally worn out. But AHah.. thanks to RUYI who added the names, I love this pic!
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
Stressed....
Im feeling it. Totally. Summer term is so intense, I do not have time to breathe, to sit down and get my footing right again, and I am constantly on the go. I am trying hard to squeeze my studying in between projects, classes. I need time to sit down and read my textbooks. Im lacking sleep again. There is no time for so many things. ARRGGGHHH....
Two projects to be completed within one week. And the week after, project presentation for 2 projects plus 2 exams. I have to find my life vest. Otherwise I will definitely sink. I dun wanna sink. I wanna stay afloat... and ASEAN LADY is in sight... That should motivate me well.
Grades do matter. Though it didnt really matter for my case for now. Still, It is a personal challenge that I wanna take on.
Corporate Finance is extremely interesting and very important. Day in day out in those lunches I went, people are talking about financing. Debt or equity? And the mix? These are the corporate decisions that has to be made everyday. I need to equip myself well with the knowledge in this aspect. To value company, what affects a company's value which affects a lot of other aspects. SK has been a very great instructor. I shall go audit Investment banking by him. Not that I am interested to go into the IB industry, but that provides another pespective to corporate finance. And since i will eventually be dealing with these bankers as well, it is rather important to know and see things from their point of view.
Marketing. Im actually in Marketing class now. I dun really enjoy studying for marketing. There are a lot of memory work. Yes, it is a lot of bullshit and common sense, but still, there are all the theories to stick to. It is important yes.. but i really dun quite like to study for it. Hiaz... And like halfway thru typing my blog, i will stop to participate in class. Yes.. Now we learn that there are 7Ps in services marketing. More relax, less intense. Hmm...
I just changed my major sequence. AHAH... initially, it should read BBM, Marketing and Finance. I changed it to BBM, Finance and Marketing. Any difference since Im taking a DOUBLE, not a Major minor... YES. Cos i realise people perceive the value of a finance degree higher than a marketing one. People will also take you less seriously when you are a marketing major vs a finance major. Im saying all these in general, there are of course, exceptions. And seriously, that is the case in the world out there.
Im getting naggy... but I am really more sleepy. YAWNzz.....
I crave for something sweet at this point of time.. What do i have in mind now? The APPLE CRUMBLE @ swensens... I need that... hmm... a little treat I think i deserve.
Im fighting a battle now too... trying not to fall sick... SIGH...
Stressed up little thing...
Two projects to be completed within one week. And the week after, project presentation for 2 projects plus 2 exams. I have to find my life vest. Otherwise I will definitely sink. I dun wanna sink. I wanna stay afloat... and ASEAN LADY is in sight... That should motivate me well.
Grades do matter. Though it didnt really matter for my case for now. Still, It is a personal challenge that I wanna take on.
Corporate Finance is extremely interesting and very important. Day in day out in those lunches I went, people are talking about financing. Debt or equity? And the mix? These are the corporate decisions that has to be made everyday. I need to equip myself well with the knowledge in this aspect. To value company, what affects a company's value which affects a lot of other aspects. SK has been a very great instructor. I shall go audit Investment banking by him. Not that I am interested to go into the IB industry, but that provides another pespective to corporate finance. And since i will eventually be dealing with these bankers as well, it is rather important to know and see things from their point of view.
Marketing. Im actually in Marketing class now. I dun really enjoy studying for marketing. There are a lot of memory work. Yes, it is a lot of bullshit and common sense, but still, there are all the theories to stick to. It is important yes.. but i really dun quite like to study for it. Hiaz... And like halfway thru typing my blog, i will stop to participate in class. Yes.. Now we learn that there are 7Ps in services marketing. More relax, less intense. Hmm...
I just changed my major sequence. AHAH... initially, it should read BBM, Marketing and Finance. I changed it to BBM, Finance and Marketing. Any difference since Im taking a DOUBLE, not a Major minor... YES. Cos i realise people perceive the value of a finance degree higher than a marketing one. People will also take you less seriously when you are a marketing major vs a finance major. Im saying all these in general, there are of course, exceptions. And seriously, that is the case in the world out there.
Im getting naggy... but I am really more sleepy. YAWNzz.....
I crave for something sweet at this point of time.. What do i have in mind now? The APPLE CRUMBLE @ swensens... I need that... hmm... a little treat I think i deserve.
Im fighting a battle now too... trying not to fall sick... SIGH...
Stressed up little thing...
Awesome experience
Well... and today came the lunch. ASEAN LADY was fantastic. It was simply splendid. It is an honour to be on board this yatch. This yatch is like a 10 star hotel. And i am not kidding. I would dream to live on the yatch. I would love to have my honeymoon on board such a sweet lady. And this ASEAN LADY IS built by my company. Isnt it amazing? If i manage to be filty rich again one day, FOR SURE, I wanna have one of these YATCHs too... Like, them, hire a Thai captain and thai cabin crew. AAHHA... WHEN WILL MY DREAM COME TRUE? What shall I name her? Hmm... "SHI SHI".. hahaha
Once again, I am very thankful to be invited for the lunch. Well, one thing stood out clear today. I was the only female sitting on the dining table with 12 other men. In this corporate world, to survive and stay there, you have got to be tough. No GU NIANG style. As an intern, I know people do not hold much vested interest in me. But its ok, Im not really born to talk cock or come up with rubbish to talk to people whom i have never met in my life. I can only joke and have fun and talk comfortably with people i know. Well, ironically, to survive in the world out there, I have to master the talk cock skills. I have to master the NO SHY skill too. BAck to the sexist issue, well... I guess I have to work extra hard just to make that mile.
First time in my life I got on such a Prestigious and extremely luxurious YATCH. It is a lifetime experience. And THE CAR. First time in my life I am driven around in a PORCHE... Man..
OK... BACK TO REALITY. The above DID took place. That was real. It's just that that is not a very real thing that happens to me everyday. Now, it is back to work, which i am lagging so much behind. There is so much to catch up on. I had to miss my classes in between for the lunch. But this networking lunch, though it doesnt really add a lot of value tangibly to me, it sorts of gives me another form of exposure. Im very motivated to JUMP ON BOARD. AND i felt, every single minute and second I was there on board the yatch and listening to these people talk, My corporate finance CAME TO LIVE!!!! EXACTLY what i am learning in school, I see people using and talking and dealing with it. I am motivated to study well for corp finance. I HAVE TO. Now that my results will be under someone's "SCRUTINY".
Im lacking sleep again. I need to sleep. HELP. I NEED TO SLEEP!!!
Once again, I am very thankful to be invited for the lunch. Well, one thing stood out clear today. I was the only female sitting on the dining table with 12 other men. In this corporate world, to survive and stay there, you have got to be tough. No GU NIANG style. As an intern, I know people do not hold much vested interest in me. But its ok, Im not really born to talk cock or come up with rubbish to talk to people whom i have never met in my life. I can only joke and have fun and talk comfortably with people i know. Well, ironically, to survive in the world out there, I have to master the talk cock skills. I have to master the NO SHY skill too. BAck to the sexist issue, well... I guess I have to work extra hard just to make that mile.
First time in my life I got on such a Prestigious and extremely luxurious YATCH. It is a lifetime experience. And THE CAR. First time in my life I am driven around in a PORCHE... Man..
OK... BACK TO REALITY. The above DID took place. That was real. It's just that that is not a very real thing that happens to me everyday. Now, it is back to work, which i am lagging so much behind. There is so much to catch up on. I had to miss my classes in between for the lunch. But this networking lunch, though it doesnt really add a lot of value tangibly to me, it sorts of gives me another form of exposure. Im very motivated to JUMP ON BOARD. AND i felt, every single minute and second I was there on board the yatch and listening to these people talk, My corporate finance CAME TO LIVE!!!! EXACTLY what i am learning in school, I see people using and talking and dealing with it. I am motivated to study well for corp finance. I HAVE TO. Now that my results will be under someone's "SCRUTINY".
Im lacking sleep again. I need to sleep. HELP. I NEED TO SLEEP!!!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Excited!!!
Woah.. another quickie. I have lots of things to mug and catch up on. All the studying i strived to do on tuesday all turned into me sleeping and watching tv.
Was talking to Mc yesterday night. AHahah... Very funny conversation we had. Asked me when am i coming on board. I said 18th Dec most prob.. And i said i hope i dun have to spend my Xmas in yantai. He said of course i have to... not many girls need get to go there... think of it as paris... and i said... woah... "yantai really loves me"!!!
I think he is just teasing me. Actually i dun mind travelling there on xmas.. no doubt it is for work but hahaha... in snow. I have never tried that.
And there is this exclusive lunch this friday!!!! WOAH.. Im how excited!!! Will fill in the details after that!
TOtally motivated again!!
Was talking to Mc yesterday night. AHahah... Very funny conversation we had. Asked me when am i coming on board. I said 18th Dec most prob.. And i said i hope i dun have to spend my Xmas in yantai. He said of course i have to... not many girls need get to go there... think of it as paris... and i said... woah... "yantai really loves me"!!!
I think he is just teasing me. Actually i dun mind travelling there on xmas.. no doubt it is for work but hahaha... in snow. I have never tried that.
And there is this exclusive lunch this friday!!!! WOAH.. Im how excited!!! Will fill in the details after that!
TOtally motivated again!!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
A Lovely Tuesday!
Muahaha....I got a revitalising sleep finally! Did not have to listen to the noisy hp alarm. Just received news that my mid term test for Corp finance is cancelled. Hhaha.. Happy. This means that i can study at my own pace. I do not have to rush for the sake of rushing.
My grad trip has been bothering me for a while... You know.. When i do not have that settled feeling, i cant find my footing, cant anchor myself anywhere and so i cant move on.. That kind of "lost" feeling. Finally... AHAH i see some light. Cliff has been offering me great help these days. Not my cousin cliff if you are wondering. He made me see some light into my decision of CFA training and also haha... my grad trip. YAY...
OK. JY!!!! I need to talk to you. Hurry move yourself back to Evergreen and I can plan my schedule with yours. I wanna go to Seoul. Found out that Thai airways offers one of the cheapest tickets which requires me to stopover Bkk. If all things turn out well.. Jy!! I can meet you in Bkk and we shall take the same flight to Seoul. And its going to be winter in Dec. I hope that i get to see some snow for all the cold i have to bear anyway. Woah!!! Cant wait!!!
2 BIG BIG outing to look forward to:
Study and catch up on my work.
Do some reading for leisure too...
I feel good to be back to civilisation. AHAH...
My grad trip has been bothering me for a while... You know.. When i do not have that settled feeling, i cant find my footing, cant anchor myself anywhere and so i cant move on.. That kind of "lost" feeling. Finally... AHAH i see some light. Cliff has been offering me great help these days. Not my cousin cliff if you are wondering. He made me see some light into my decision of CFA training and also haha... my grad trip. YAY...
OK. JY!!!! I need to talk to you. Hurry move yourself back to Evergreen and I can plan my schedule with yours. I wanna go to Seoul. Found out that Thai airways offers one of the cheapest tickets which requires me to stopover Bkk. If all things turn out well.. Jy!! I can meet you in Bkk and we shall take the same flight to Seoul. And its going to be winter in Dec. I hope that i get to see some snow for all the cold i have to bear anyway. Woah!!! Cant wait!!!
2 BIG BIG outing to look forward to:
- Lynette's arrival from Hk!! Finally.. one of the last few to come back from exchange. So Belle, Sy, Nette and Shi can have a wonderful TALK NON STOP and LAUGH NON STOP session. AHhaha... Time to update us on ya wonderful Hk Egg tart life.
- Exchange babes get-to-gether.. AHAH.. Tracy is back from Hk, Jo back from London, Chris back from Denmark, Tarn back from France... And Shi.. back from Thailand... AHAH... SO MUCH TO CATCH UP!!!...
Study and catch up on my work.
Do some reading for leisure too...
I feel good to be back to civilisation. AHAH...
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