I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I cant believe my one week in SG office is ending tom. Time flies whenever im in SG office.
Bad news: Im fighting flu virus now. I cant believe i will be back in the -12 deg place this coming mon. I just received my air tickets today. I am in dire need of sleep.
I am still wondering if i should leave my luggage in the hotel and then after the wedding dinner, change up and just leave straight for the airport this sun or is it a better idea to come back home to change up first and then leave for airport. I think i should be settling for the latter. That means i have to pack my luggage early.
I have to be awake damn early on sunday morning. I need to catch my sleep!!! and I wont be done till i settle in my seat on the plane. Next day when i reach BJ, it will be damn cold and then after i reach YT, I go straight to the yard? I think that is extremely cruel!! I am hoping and praying that I get to stay in the hotel and not guesthouse. I need the comfort oh so badly. That means i wont get to sleep properly till next weekend, which happens to be 2nd feb.
It's now 11.20 and I still have work to complete, to rush for tom's audit because i need to clear everything by the end of the week.
Yawnz.....
I need a break. A good rest. Free from work. Free from all these troubles. Free. JUST FREE.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
Settling down in a place I call home
And I have problems doing that right now.
I am not kidding cos I really do. Emotionally, spritually, physically.
Starting from tomorrow onwards, I am going to the gym/pool every day till the end of the week. I havent been exercising for the longest time.
Today is my lunar birthday and Im glad that I spent it with my dearest family. I value my birthday and it is always a blessing to have the people you love celebrate it for you, with you, not because of anything big but simply because I know they love me and that this is one day they celebrate because it also means something to them that it is on this day 24 years ago that I was born.
Anyway...
It is absolutely tiring that I have to face this again. And I am very disappointed really. Once again, the decisions i made a couple of times last year kept surfacing in my head. Maybe I should wait. Maybe it is like that. Maybe the day will come when there is no longer any turning back. Maybe these are just the results of my wild imaginations. I dunno what to expect. I only know that I am not happy.
Too much has happened in these 2 months while im away.
I guess I am lost now.
I dunno why I cant accept it and I get a little worked up each time I face this issue. I am used to shoving it aside. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt. Enlighten me will you? I have never seen it, i am not seeing it now and I dun think I will be seeing it anytime soon. This is a sacrifice too big and I know that I will not be happy no matter what. Because I am expected to compromise something I held for the longest time, that is rooted deep in my heart.
Unless I see it, I cant.
I am tired of empty promises. I have to do a lot of liaison at work, a lot of pushing, a lot of active selling of idea. I think I have enough. I am tired of playing an active role. It's a struggle each time I do this. That is the best way to protect myself nonetheless.
I give up.
I am not kidding cos I really do. Emotionally, spritually, physically.
Starting from tomorrow onwards, I am going to the gym/pool every day till the end of the week. I havent been exercising for the longest time.
Today is my lunar birthday and Im glad that I spent it with my dearest family. I value my birthday and it is always a blessing to have the people you love celebrate it for you, with you, not because of anything big but simply because I know they love me and that this is one day they celebrate because it also means something to them that it is on this day 24 years ago that I was born.
Anyway...
It is absolutely tiring that I have to face this again. And I am very disappointed really. Once again, the decisions i made a couple of times last year kept surfacing in my head. Maybe I should wait. Maybe it is like that. Maybe the day will come when there is no longer any turning back. Maybe these are just the results of my wild imaginations. I dunno what to expect. I only know that I am not happy.
Too much has happened in these 2 months while im away.
I guess I am lost now.
I dunno why I cant accept it and I get a little worked up each time I face this issue. I am used to shoving it aside. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt. Enlighten me will you? I have never seen it, i am not seeing it now and I dun think I will be seeing it anytime soon. This is a sacrifice too big and I know that I will not be happy no matter what. Because I am expected to compromise something I held for the longest time, that is rooted deep in my heart.
Unless I see it, I cant.
I am tired of empty promises. I have to do a lot of liaison at work, a lot of pushing, a lot of active selling of idea. I think I have enough. I am tired of playing an active role. It's a struggle each time I do this. That is the best way to protect myself nonetheless.
I give up.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Sy you are very funny.
Sent me an email to book an appointment with me.
Im happy about going back home finally next week for a while. Being away from home for a good 2 months for work is certainly an experience. A lot happened within these 2 months and I think it is time I go back to my comfy room and put things back to perspective again.
One piece of good news. I was given a clearer direction on my career progression after im done with this project in China. Im happy with the news. As I will now be reporting to someone so senior, I had better buck up on my readings and knowledge, especially my language. I am real lucky to be given this opportunity I feel. I am certainly grateful for that.
I need a break man.
Even if it was a teeny, weeny one.
I cant wait to see everyone.
Let me post some pics for you guys...
Sent me an email to book an appointment with me.
Im happy about going back home finally next week for a while. Being away from home for a good 2 months for work is certainly an experience. A lot happened within these 2 months and I think it is time I go back to my comfy room and put things back to perspective again.
One piece of good news. I was given a clearer direction on my career progression after im done with this project in China. Im happy with the news. As I will now be reporting to someone so senior, I had better buck up on my readings and knowledge, especially my language. I am real lucky to be given this opportunity I feel. I am certainly grateful for that.
I need a break man.
Even if it was a teeny, weeny one.
I cant wait to see everyone.
Let me post some pics for you guys...
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
I had a great getaway in Korea, seoul.
I had a fantabulous new year's eve celebration.
Thank you MM for visiting me. Although we missed the trip to Da lian because of the bad weather, it was a blessing in disguise because we had an awesome celebration in yantai together with the rest of the gang.
Today marks the beginning of another working year 2008. Though im still suffering from yesterday's hangover, i made sure i report to work on time. I also made sure i didnt work on 1st Jan 2008. As much as I am from this new age generation, I am still superstitious about starting the year right and not take any chances to let anything go wrong.
Will blabber more and post more pics when soon.
I owe you readers this.
one piece of announcement. I will be back in Mee pok land on 18th Jan. Yes, birthday to be spent in china, as much as I would like to celebrate it back home, i dun have a choice. :(
Would all of you please dedicate ya first mouthful of Mee pok, prata, samba sting ray, char kway teow to me? Thank you!
Im available for bdae celebration from 19th till 27th Jan. Cos i think i will be back in china on 28th. But no worries, for sure i will be back for CNY.
Wait for me folks.
I had a fantabulous new year's eve celebration.
Thank you MM for visiting me. Although we missed the trip to Da lian because of the bad weather, it was a blessing in disguise because we had an awesome celebration in yantai together with the rest of the gang.
Today marks the beginning of another working year 2008. Though im still suffering from yesterday's hangover, i made sure i report to work on time. I also made sure i didnt work on 1st Jan 2008. As much as I am from this new age generation, I am still superstitious about starting the year right and not take any chances to let anything go wrong.
Will blabber more and post more pics when soon.
I owe you readers this.
one piece of announcement. I will be back in Mee pok land on 18th Jan. Yes, birthday to be spent in china, as much as I would like to celebrate it back home, i dun have a choice. :(
Would all of you please dedicate ya first mouthful of Mee pok, prata, samba sting ray, char kway teow to me? Thank you!
Im available for bdae celebration from 19th till 27th Jan. Cos i think i will be back in china on 28th. But no worries, for sure i will be back for CNY.
Wait for me folks.
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