Take a 10 min break. Banter a little on some thoughts I hold right now.
You know how i used to get very good grades in sec sch...
And it is also in sec school, after an exchange program to thailand that my perspective in life began to change. I begin to realise that there is more to life than studying.
Come JC, i got more distracted. Relationships, diverse groups of friends, CCAs, heavy workload, the distance i had to travel everyday. I began to study lesser and lesser. I know Victoria wasnt an easy place that you could just scrap by with luck. You have got to work hard. I guess it didnt help that the people around me were all very smart too.
Uni, I guess my best grades in happened in two sems. One was the sem just before my godfather passed away. The other was my last sem after my internship. I grew up and i changed a lot during my 3.5 years in Uni. The internship changed my life too.
Haha... now that im going back to school again. Im really looking forward. Although i havent submitted my application. I think i would have to make a lot of sacrifices, especially financially and also personally, for the amount of time, money, effort and stress that i have to commit to taking up this masters and also to continue working. Im not sure if it is wise for me to start studying now. I mean i cant afford to fly and be away for as long as i did this year. But i really missed those days back in school studying.
Anyway, if i dun do this now, i dun think i would choose to do it anymore. Cos 2 years fits exactly into my career plans. I mean i dun have anything concrete now, but at least, the skeleton of it is so. I would like to relocate after this masters. Then i can concentrate on my career, maybe family too.
Not sure if I would be good in this.
Haha.. dun think so far, GMAT FIRST!!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
And as the time bomb ticks along....
I feel like a dead parrot pestering people for things again and again. And do I have a choice? Let's see. I am not holding a senior post in which the appearance of my designation on people's email will ensure that people get back to me fast.
I am the only idiot rushing like mad and enduring the stress cos no one else cares.
I am emotionally drained, spiritually extremely stressed up because I am holding on to a time bomb. And i am entrusted to find my own means and ways, to ensure that it doesnt blow up.
Maybe I will run away on sat, 2nd Aug. I cant wait for all these to end.
Morale, all time low.
No support, no authority.
Yes I learn a lot. But i am not happy now. Im too tired of holding these big portfolios one after another. I need a break.
And for the past 8 months, have I been really doing things that I enjoy? I dun think so.
I cant wait to get out of this place. At least for today.
Im going to go for Good korean food after work. Go for a little stroll by the beach. Get some snacks. Sleep well.
I need a big bear hug.
Perhaps now is when things seem worst, and rest if i must but don't I quit!.
Don't Quit Poem by anonymous
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! if you must; but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow;
You might succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
I am the only idiot rushing like mad and enduring the stress cos no one else cares.
I am emotionally drained, spiritually extremely stressed up because I am holding on to a time bomb. And i am entrusted to find my own means and ways, to ensure that it doesnt blow up.
Maybe I will run away on sat, 2nd Aug. I cant wait for all these to end.
Morale, all time low.
No support, no authority.
Yes I learn a lot. But i am not happy now. Im too tired of holding these big portfolios one after another. I need a break.
And for the past 8 months, have I been really doing things that I enjoy? I dun think so.
I cant wait to get out of this place. At least for today.
Im going to go for Good korean food after work. Go for a little stroll by the beach. Get some snacks. Sleep well.
I need a big bear hug.
Perhaps now is when things seem worst, and rest if i must but don't I quit!.
Don't Quit Poem by anonymous
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! if you must; but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow;
You might succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
Pissed off
I am stopped by the security guards again. For not having a pass to enter the yard. Well, why am i suffering because of a bunch of incapable craps who were hired, paid, not to complete their duties, to proudly announce what we, employees are suppose to do, how we are suppose to coorporate, only to find out later that, whatever I did, to make the effort to bring a photo to pass to the depts 1 month before my arrival, for according to them this will be passed to the china office to have my pass made, to realise not only was my pass not ready, that the HR here did not receive my photo at all. When i call back to request, i am greeted with a utmost rude WHY? WHY AM I ASKING FOR A SCANNED PHOTO OF ME? FOR WHAT? And well, after explaining, the photo of me that was sent earlier, WASNT EVEN THE ONE OF ME THAT I PASSED TO THEM!!!! IT was the one that the dept ALREADY HAD. SO WHY ASK ME TO PASS TO THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE??
And what pisses me off the most, is to have these guards at the gate, whom I thought we were pretty familiar already, since even out of so many guards, i actually already recognise a few and I am dead sure he recognises me, to pretend that he doesnt know me.
I am sick and tired of suffering in the hands of people who firstly, do not have a sense of responsibilty, who hold the utmost fucked up attitude despite their incompetencies and half the time not understanding what anybody is trying to say, who gives you the attitude of as if WE OWE it to them when we are instructed by higher management to CLEAR THEIR SHIT because of their incapabilities, and people whom are already in their early forties and keeps thinking that they have eaten salt more than I have eaten rice but they things they do, shows how little, if not non-existence, the amt of common sense they use/have.
Why do one thing so many times and cant get it done right, done once, once and for all?
and IF you are incapable, and you know that you have been screwed up because the boss has already screwed you MANY TIMES, and none of the people except your dogs havent been able to get along with you and also, have been screwing you and it was only because you didnt have the intelligence to identify and understand that people are ACTUALLY SCREWiNG YOU, why are you still staying in that position?
Didnt your mum ever impart the values of knowing when to feel ashame? NO shame??? SHAME.
What a monday morning.
And what pisses me off the most, is to have these guards at the gate, whom I thought we were pretty familiar already, since even out of so many guards, i actually already recognise a few and I am dead sure he recognises me, to pretend that he doesnt know me.
I am sick and tired of suffering in the hands of people who firstly, do not have a sense of responsibilty, who hold the utmost fucked up attitude despite their incompetencies and half the time not understanding what anybody is trying to say, who gives you the attitude of as if WE OWE it to them when we are instructed by higher management to CLEAR THEIR SHIT because of their incapabilities, and people whom are already in their early forties and keeps thinking that they have eaten salt more than I have eaten rice but they things they do, shows how little, if not non-existence, the amt of common sense they use/have.
Why do one thing so many times and cant get it done right, done once, once and for all?
and IF you are incapable, and you know that you have been screwed up because the boss has already screwed you MANY TIMES, and none of the people except your dogs havent been able to get along with you and also, have been screwing you and it was only because you didnt have the intelligence to identify and understand that people are ACTUALLY SCREWiNG YOU, why are you still staying in that position?
Didnt your mum ever impart the values of knowing when to feel ashame? NO shame??? SHAME.
What a monday morning.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
From 幸福路 Xing Fu Street
I found a DVD compilation of all the "zombie" movies.. Remember Lin Zheng YING? yes, that whole series. Haha.. That was what I was watching every night starting two nights ago. However, I only finished one cos I couldnt keep myself awake to finish the first one. More to go. And unbelievably, that was the FIRST DVD that gave such quality graphics from the street lei. 8RMB we are talking about here... for 10 movies all in 1 DVD.
And from the same street, I bought 4 juicy sweet peaches for 2.9 RMB => $0.60 SGD. YEah the peaches dont look as good as those you see in Jasons or market place. I guess its more of the dirt that are stuck onto the hairy skin surface. I never intend to eat the skin anyway. Good deal huh!
And from the same street, I bought 4 juicy sweet peaches for 2.9 RMB => $0.60 SGD. YEah the peaches dont look as good as those you see in Jasons or market place. I guess its more of the dirt that are stuck onto the hairy skin surface. I never intend to eat the skin anyway. Good deal huh!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Cant wait
Perhaps it is time to re-think my current career plans in life.
Work has been exceptionally draining today. More emotionally than physically.
I am tired.
Cant wait for everything to be over.
Work has been exceptionally draining today. More emotionally than physically.
I am tired.
Cant wait for everything to be over.
Monday, July 21, 2008
For those of you whom i didnt have time to inform. Im back in China!
Yeah. Now im trying very hard to study my GMAT during the weekends and well, after office hours.
Im praying for a smooth sailing trip, a successful launch of the system, and then i can go pack and return home & Spend a lot of time on GMAT, and then go for GMAT & Take care of my Masters application. Then i can go for my long-awaited and well-deserved holiday. All within 3 weeks.
No more nonsense. The earlier and faster i finish my work on hand, the more time and less stress i have for my GMAT. I am pretty happy with the KAPLAN GMAT book that i got. It is easy to understand, logical and i was surprised that it actually guides very well. I mean compared to those SAT books which i used to study, this is certainly a GUIDE rather than just a book full of practices, this is on the contrary, a WORK smart, study SMART book. It is important, especially for people like me who is rushing for time.
I didnt even bother to go stock up on any magazines nor bring any other books to read. GMAT GMAT.
One happy news over the weekend, although i was pretty badly tortured for a while. I lost weight!!! Dunno why, kenna mild food poisoning again. My stomach is weak. I thought after that mega gastrointestinal infection a few trips ago, i would have upped my immunity against all these bacteria. I never had any problems in Bangkok regardless of the amt of street food I ate. Now, even with all the precautions i take, i still fall victim to all these forever-mutating bacteria.
Not going to binge on food. Not going to snack unnecessarily. Going to play sports and work out. Yes. Even here. I brought my gear.
Work, study, play, sleep. Very important.
Yeah. Now im trying very hard to study my GMAT during the weekends and well, after office hours.
Im praying for a smooth sailing trip, a successful launch of the system, and then i can go pack and return home & Spend a lot of time on GMAT, and then go for GMAT & Take care of my Masters application. Then i can go for my long-awaited and well-deserved holiday. All within 3 weeks.
No more nonsense. The earlier and faster i finish my work on hand, the more time and less stress i have for my GMAT. I am pretty happy with the KAPLAN GMAT book that i got. It is easy to understand, logical and i was surprised that it actually guides very well. I mean compared to those SAT books which i used to study, this is certainly a GUIDE rather than just a book full of practices, this is on the contrary, a WORK smart, study SMART book. It is important, especially for people like me who is rushing for time.
I didnt even bother to go stock up on any magazines nor bring any other books to read. GMAT GMAT.
One happy news over the weekend, although i was pretty badly tortured for a while. I lost weight!!! Dunno why, kenna mild food poisoning again. My stomach is weak. I thought after that mega gastrointestinal infection a few trips ago, i would have upped my immunity against all these bacteria. I never had any problems in Bangkok regardless of the amt of street food I ate. Now, even with all the precautions i take, i still fall victim to all these forever-mutating bacteria.
Not going to binge on food. Not going to snack unnecessarily. Going to play sports and work out. Yes. Even here. I brought my gear.
Work, study, play, sleep. Very important.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Stress Management
Got this card from my sis. I thought she wrote something for me haha, but no. This was it. That's alright. When i saw this card just now. Hiaz, i got a little emotional. I guess the stress now is really pretty intense.
Everything is important. Everything is due soon.
Im tired.
But I have to keep going. Keep going.
It's good. Im kind of touched. At least there is something to brighten up my day.
The "laksa" was pretty good. Although it tasted more like chicken soto with chilie. Considering that it was made from scratch. That was quite a commendable effort.
I cant wait for the authentic thai massage. I need one so badly now.
I have to push myself on. Finish up my proposal tonight or watch movie? But I know if i were to go sleep tonight without doing anything. Tom's going to be even more stressful for me.
Stress management is something i guess i havent quite mastered yet.
You see, i should relax, not think about work. At least for one day this weekend.
But, if i get to relax now, and tom i get double the stress that i would if i had done something today, is it still worthwhile to relax? Is stress management about knowing when to let go, when to rest? Or is it about finding ways to minimise stress and to reduce it even if there were no complete rest in between?
Or is it perhaps, striking a balance between those two points raised earlier? That is something i still havent quite got.
Countdown to my departure. With mixed feelings.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Oink Oink
My eyes are so going to close anytime.
No free lunch they say. Yes, no company will fork out $$ to pay for your air ticket without you having to slave your ass off. I am right now.
Im not sure how the light at the end of the tunnel would look like. I cant wait to see. It's always good have a very challenging goal right in front. Everyday time whizz by without me knowing. Excel excel and more excel. And constantly, the little window at the bottom right hand corner pops up to prompt a new email.
Workload is MAD.
GMAT is Mad.
All i want and need now...
ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................
No free lunch they say. Yes, no company will fork out $$ to pay for your air ticket without you having to slave your ass off. I am right now.
Im not sure how the light at the end of the tunnel would look like. I cant wait to see. It's always good have a very challenging goal right in front. Everyday time whizz by without me knowing. Excel excel and more excel. And constantly, the little window at the bottom right hand corner pops up to prompt a new email.
Workload is MAD.
GMAT is Mad.
All i want and need now...
ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................
Monday, July 07, 2008
SMILE!!!
Im excited about the trip to bangkok. The last time i was there was 2 years ago. Ever since i started travelling and staying in China, any trip to any country other than China never fails to excite me.
Yes. Bangkok.
With non-other-than the fantabulous CHOU CHOU!!
Cant Wait. Cant Wait.
Yes. Bangkok.
With non-other-than the fantabulous CHOU CHOU!!
Cant Wait. Cant Wait.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
SOUP RESTAURANT
Beary tired.
But Im glad i finished 1/infinite tasks on my plate now.
I have to work OT this weekend from home. Otherwise i will never be able to keep to the deadline.
I need to fly off by 24th July.
Gotta make a trip down to the China embassy this Monday. Thanks to Olympics!
I cant wait to get rid of the side dishes so that i can concentrate on my main dish all so that I can enjoy my desserts.
I have started on my GMAT practises. Haha... It's a lot better than SAT i feel. As in the type of questions, the analysis and the way candidates are tested. It involves a lot of logic. Composure, stamina and a clear mind are keys to performing well. Of course, that is on the assumption that there were good preparation done before hand. That is the part im working really hard right now.
Time is running out. I gotta race through the month of July with all the work on hand, biggest delivery for the year in Aug 1, and concurrently prepare for my GMAT. And it doesnt help i guess to have one business trip from now till my test day. No way am I going to miss this test man. I paid $350 SGD for it.
I was back at the Orchard hotel swimming pool last night. It's been ages since i last made a trip there. I felt really good and of course, extremely exhausted after the swim. Time to keep the body going. For some strange reasons, work didnt get off my mind even when i was swimming. I guess that explains the more-severe-than-usual stiff neck that i am suffering now.
I had dinner with wongso at SOUP restaurant. A call for a tiny celebration!
I love the Samsui Chicken. Wrap it in the lettuce and add some of the ginger sauce + cucumber. OOOOOHHHHHHH.....
The price is a little steep but given the quality of food. It is pretty worth it!
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