If I can hop onto the plane and take off to the destination of my choice, i would pick new york.
Sitting by one of the street cafes, enjoying a nice salad and watching peeps come and go as they often did in the show SATC, I wonder if everything would be as good as it seems.
Japan would be my second choice. The fashion, the food and their spirit of perfection and quality in everything they produce is enough to satiate my visual needs. I have always wondered if the sushi there is indeed better.
Im leaving again tom morning for china. I have mixed feelings once again. Very soon it will be over and i will be riding on rainbows maybe. As of now, dark clouds loom ahead and the occasional thunders are pretty torturous.
Cant say life is not good. But life is certainly not easy.
Hmm... I bumped into her yesterday. I wonder why things turn out this way. So 10 years of friendship is not worth anything after all.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Fighting on
Teared a bit on the phone.
I guess the lack of sleep had a great part to play. I mean I stayed up pretty late these days to blog, surf net and do things which i enjoy. Cos if I dun, very soon I will be back in China and it's a tad different over there so I am trying to maximize my time here.
At work, I was loaded with 1 huge portolio and I have to take on another 0.8 of a portfolio because one colleague is leaving. On hand in total, I have 3 big portfolios and 2 small ones. Im serving 2 directors and 1 CFO. Everything is urgent. And I have to fly back to China because there is another handover to settle otherwise the mess wont get better and my huge ass portfolio cannot move on properly. I am halfway through sorting out the files. There are two thick stacks of policies to read. These are excluding the main contracts of all the projects. How and where do I get the time. Plus i need to get ready for the survey which has to happen in end feb or early march.
I am stress because I hate the feeling of not having a good grasp of what is happening. But I need time and it takes time. And I hate the feeling of me not being able to perfect my work the way I wanted it.
And I still want to meet up with all my friends and family cos im going to be away for like another 1.5 months.
Somewhere deep inside I want to fight on. I want to juggle everything and juggle everything well. I can do it. I do not need anyone's help.
As much as I teared I refuse to admit defeat.
I will fight the battle.
I didnt like the way the conversation ended. It ended because you were in a hurry, not because I was alright.
I guess the lack of sleep had a great part to play. I mean I stayed up pretty late these days to blog, surf net and do things which i enjoy. Cos if I dun, very soon I will be back in China and it's a tad different over there so I am trying to maximize my time here.
At work, I was loaded with 1 huge portolio and I have to take on another 0.8 of a portfolio because one colleague is leaving. On hand in total, I have 3 big portfolios and 2 small ones. Im serving 2 directors and 1 CFO. Everything is urgent. And I have to fly back to China because there is another handover to settle otherwise the mess wont get better and my huge ass portfolio cannot move on properly. I am halfway through sorting out the files. There are two thick stacks of policies to read. These are excluding the main contracts of all the projects. How and where do I get the time. Plus i need to get ready for the survey which has to happen in end feb or early march.
I am stress because I hate the feeling of not having a good grasp of what is happening. But I need time and it takes time. And I hate the feeling of me not being able to perfect my work the way I wanted it.
And I still want to meet up with all my friends and family cos im going to be away for like another 1.5 months.
Somewhere deep inside I want to fight on. I want to juggle everything and juggle everything well. I can do it. I do not need anyone's help.
As much as I teared I refuse to admit defeat.
I will fight the battle.
I didnt like the way the conversation ended. It ended because you were in a hurry, not because I was alright.
Superb company with scrumptious food
Im physically exhausted!
Slept at almost 3am last night.
So busy at work today. One thing piling on another. Cant complete one task without another distracting. I am happy and thrilled that im back to being this busy.
It was a fabulous gathering! Like what Tarn said, we can always just sit together and chat so freely, comfortably and laugh at some of the silly jokes of one another.
We met up at this Italian restaurant called Etna located at Lau Pa Sat.
They have good pastas. As in seriously good. I ordered a Linguine with pan fried scallops in Lobstar sauce. It was going for $22 and it is worth every penny paid. They served like about 5 scallops. The sizes varied but they are about medium-large and cooked to perfection. The sauce was excellent and not too creamy. I would probably go back for more and I would certainly wanna try the food again with a glass of chilled white wine.
Come back CC, come back now.
Slept at almost 3am last night.
So busy at work today. One thing piling on another. Cant complete one task without another distracting. I am happy and thrilled that im back to being this busy.
It was a fabulous gathering! Like what Tarn said, we can always just sit together and chat so freely, comfortably and laugh at some of the silly jokes of one another.
We met up at this Italian restaurant called Etna located at Lau Pa Sat.
They have good pastas. As in seriously good. I ordered a Linguine with pan fried scallops in Lobstar sauce. It was going for $22 and it is worth every penny paid. They served like about 5 scallops. The sizes varied but they are about medium-large and cooked to perfection. The sauce was excellent and not too creamy. I would probably go back for more and I would certainly wanna try the food again with a glass of chilled white wine.
Come back CC, come back now.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Where is the courage?
I cant bring myself to do it.
I have been eyeing them for the longest time but arrgghhh...
Gotta let go of the thoughts.
Cant do this now.
Cant buy myself a Chanel.
And this is the first luxury good that I would like to own. Not LV, not Gucci, Not Burberry. CHANEL!!!!!
I just cant bear to part with the $$.
I mean it is more of the value of carrying a chanel bag.
It's like a milestone achieved.
Maybe another year more...
And since Chanel never goes on sale, there is no point waiting for season clearance. Im not sure when exactly i was so into the brand.
It is more than a bag. To me, it is like carrying a trophy. A trophy for independence, in various aspects
I have been eyeing them for the longest time but arrgghhh...
Gotta let go of the thoughts.
Cant do this now.
Cant buy myself a Chanel.
And this is the first luxury good that I would like to own. Not LV, not Gucci, Not Burberry. CHANEL!!!!!
I just cant bear to part with the $$.
I mean it is more of the value of carrying a chanel bag.
It's like a milestone achieved.
Maybe another year more...
And since Chanel never goes on sale, there is no point waiting for season clearance. Im not sure when exactly i was so into the brand.
It is more than a bag. To me, it is like carrying a trophy. A trophy for independence, in various aspects
Monday, February 02, 2009
Hmm...
Some things have been staying at the back of my head and it pops up once in a while.
Please do not come ask me or pester me to reveal what these issues are because if I want to reveal them, I would. And if I didnt write it here on my blog, then respect my privacy for not wanting to share all.
Maybe I havent really made any comments about this but I kind of hate it when people come ask me about certain things that I wrote on my blog. Not everything though, but some things I would really prefer to be left as it is and it is up to your interpretation of the words.
It's been a while since I have this quiet moment alone to sort some thoughts out.
I have been having dreams these days of things which i dun exactly find pleasant.
These are probably thoughts which subconsiously ran through my head. To a certain extent, it does reflect some of the things on my consious mind.
I suppose it is time i go back to my books.
Hmm...
Please do not come ask me or pester me to reveal what these issues are because if I want to reveal them, I would. And if I didnt write it here on my blog, then respect my privacy for not wanting to share all.
Maybe I havent really made any comments about this but I kind of hate it when people come ask me about certain things that I wrote on my blog. Not everything though, but some things I would really prefer to be left as it is and it is up to your interpretation of the words.
It's been a while since I have this quiet moment alone to sort some thoughts out.
I have been having dreams these days of things which i dun exactly find pleasant.
These are probably thoughts which subconsiously ran through my head. To a certain extent, it does reflect some of the things on my consious mind.
I suppose it is time i go back to my books.
Hmm...
Goodbye CNY
This CNY is indeed different.
I spent most of it in JB though we did a fair bit of shuttling back and forth.
It was fun. So fun that i dread going back to work and sort of close the CNY hols.
On the first day of cny, I was bored to tears at my uncle's place. And guess who i called?
CC was willing to drive all the way out to bring me in even though i needed to visit my godma on the 2nd day in sg!!
And boy, I had fun man... I did not regret the shuttling back and forth.
Mahjong, Dai Dee, good gathering, eat, play, sleep.
I enjoyed the closeness and i could truly feel the warmth from their bonding. It's great to be part of this even though im yet to be official.
On the other hand, i felt that CNY in SG is becoming boring for me. We do gather but i guess our family celebration ends very much after the main visiting on the first day of CNY. Everyone gets busy with their own stuff. We dun even play mahjong together anymore somehow.
Well... It's been a while since i celebrated CNY with this kind of sentiments.
I just came back from 2 movies. InkHeart and Love matters.
Time to ZZzzz and i shall repeat this: I dread going to work!
I spent most of it in JB though we did a fair bit of shuttling back and forth.
It was fun. So fun that i dread going back to work and sort of close the CNY hols.
On the first day of cny, I was bored to tears at my uncle's place. And guess who i called?
CC was willing to drive all the way out to bring me in even though i needed to visit my godma on the 2nd day in sg!!
And boy, I had fun man... I did not regret the shuttling back and forth.
Mahjong, Dai Dee, good gathering, eat, play, sleep.
I enjoyed the closeness and i could truly feel the warmth from their bonding. It's great to be part of this even though im yet to be official.
On the other hand, i felt that CNY in SG is becoming boring for me. We do gather but i guess our family celebration ends very much after the main visiting on the first day of CNY. Everyone gets busy with their own stuff. We dun even play mahjong together anymore somehow.
Well... It's been a while since i celebrated CNY with this kind of sentiments.
I just came back from 2 movies. InkHeart and Love matters.
Time to ZZzzz and i shall repeat this: I dread going to work!
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