Aye...Dec 2010

Why do I still feel unsettled and lost?

There are a lot of things which I want to do but I cant seem to find the time and mood to do so.

I need to fight hard to give myself a break. It's a break I have been yearning since the beginning of 2010.

2011 will mark the beginning of another me.

I hope everything will still go on well.

Parents are aging.
Work has changed.

Was it a matter of thinking too much or not thinking enough?

Next phase, next year

This marks the beginning of an end.

Finally things are formalized.

I think being given the opportunity to run HR is truly a blessing in disguise. It is a lifelong benefit and has certainly changed the way I see and look at HR as well as how I deal with HR of new companies.

I hope tat is the best thing for me in 2011 and that marks a very important turning point as well.

Good luck to me.

Change

Nothing beats being lost.

Can't believe that I actually went through this whole series of anxiety yesterday. I still dread going back. I just hope all these to end soon.

It's ok nobody understands what I am going through. Sometimes I myself am confused.

Looking forward to the day when nothing else matters anymore. I hate to go to war. It us emotionally taxing and just isn't my cup of tea. This is exactly the reason why I am leaving. It is just tough to want end but still get stuck in the cyclone of issues.

I want to get out and feel free. To look at my own needs and do some adjustments.

逃跑

感觉很害怕
许多事现实和想像的差距越来越大
仿佛已迷失了方向
不是刚回来，为什么又想逃？
为什么都不开心？
我到底怎么了？

Back from bkk trip

First up, I need to change my lifestyle.

Need to take care of my physical well-being and emotional fulfillment.

I have to achieve something in 1 week.