Pamper me

I got myself a watch. Thank you WM. The more I look at it, the more I adore it. The Black Balance Irony. I trust swatch. Reason why I didnt get a guess? The design is too common and there are too many imitations available. I have to admit that this was kind of an impulse but I guess this was something that I have been keeping a lookout for and since mummy's $40 voucher is expiring soon, and I think it is time I get myself a nice metalic watch, I grabbed it.

This is a symbolic first.

The first watch that I got myself after like 23 years? Haha.. my existing collections are either gifts or pass-down.

The irony of it all is that I have stopped wearing watches for quite sometime. Maybe cos they were never my choice. This time it is different. I thought through it and it was my decision.

He asked me why I chose swatch when I was looking for a metallic one. True, swatch's forte isnt on metallic watches. I did think about it for a while. Haha... But I guess I love the brand and I trust swatch I guess I just had to go for Swatch. There will be time for more ATTAs watches later on. I want to start with something formal, nice and chic.

NICEY. Most importantly. I love it.

Ok. That's for retail therapy.

I saw how haggard I looked in the mirror today. My dark eye rings were all time black. My spiritual well-being is all time low. There are times I felt like crying when I would realise later than it is more of an emotional outcry that I had than a physical outcry. I dunno how to tear emotionally and not physically. That is something pretty painful. How do I put it. It's kind of bad. Im glad Im leaving for this. I look forward to going on the plane. To not have to think about work. I need a getaway.

Lift my spirits.

I got work to finish but I think I should sleep.

I havent packed for tom night but I think I should sleep.

Im tired of being plagued by things like that.

HAZELNUT MILK. I crave for a hot cuppa.

YAWN.

Too much memories

Would You Be There
Artist: Redwan Ali
Composer: unknown
music.yeucahat.com © 2006-2007

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..If I will wait,
would you still think of me,And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...

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Impressed & Depressed

Woah.. Mr HS - Philip... Im still not getting used to this name.

I just read your post and i am impressed!! Woah, you are the 2% you claimed to be. I read your post and I could feel the kind of excitement and anticipation that was heightened. She must have loved you to bits!! So so SWEET!!

I feel happy for you and her.

ok. Enough of you. Now let's talk about me.

I want to catch IMC 2007 so so bad. I wanted to catch a live Muay Thai show in bkk last year but i didnt get the chance to. Finally, they are holding an international championship here and WHY must it be scheduled on 14th Sep? SOB SOB!!! Im going to try so very very hard to be back in SG on 13th because I want to watch this real bad!

I wanna catch Swan Lake. I wanna catch Marriage with Figaro.

I miss catching shows at the Esplanade. I miss the little spiritual engagement each time I was there for a performance. Even if I were to be all squeezed up in the restricted view seats, I enjoyed every bit of it. I wanna be there again. I need to be there again before I go all mad with my work.

Im gonna leave again.

I dun feel as excited as I was previously. In fact, I am so bogged down by work, I dun feel much. I hope this trip will be good. A part of me wants to hurry off to another country, away from the heavy work load here. Another part of me wants to stay so badly because I know I will miss the weekends in SG so badly.

Im eating better...

I love this movie.

It is Witty, cute, funny, Classy, very well animated and it has a really good plot. There were many words of wisdom from "GUSTEAU" and these lines inspire. I like that.

After Finding Nemo, I think this is the second best cartoon that I would really classify as a must watch.

I havent been able to eat well for almost a week. I know im in some kind of trouble when I cant eat because that almost NEVER happen except when i started my work. This is the second time I would say.

I had a very good, simple but heart-warming and relaxing time since yesterday night. Thank you for the company! We didnt do anything exceptionally exciting but I enjoyed each and every moment spent, especially at the cinema catching this show.

Somehow after that, I felt that the knot in my stomach was untied. I no longer have to force food down my throat. And when I begin to wanna fight for the last piece of mushroom from the cabonara and I finished the last piece of waffle from Gelare, I know I am recovering.

Watch it peeps!

Lost

Funny aint it. I actually feel lost back in SG.

Maybe this was all due to the fact that I was swarmed by a huge load of work before i even caught my breath and I know I have a tight deadline to work with and I must clear as much as I can before i fly off again next week.

HMMM!!!

During the 2 weeks that i was away, other than my boss, and my mom, only 1 person called me every now and then to chat, tell me about the person's day and hear me talk about my day. & other than my boss and my mom, only 1 other person, same person as the one i mentioned earlier smsed me to see if I was ok. I appreciate that. I appreciate that big time. I have a China mobile and incoming is free for me and when im away working and every night alone in the hotel room, I leapt with joy when I get to talk to someone close from home.

Whatever the case, I look forward to my next trip.

Cant wait to get away again.

It hurts most when the reason and excuse that I used to pacify and console myself is no longer made available and I have to swallow and accept things which, deep inside, I know, I have reached another limit. This is not how I want my life to be. This is not what I expect things to be. It is at the end of the day, an utter disappointment. Time and time again I tried to change, I tried to run away, I tried to protect myself, I ignore, I fight, and looking at now, I know, it's all in vain. I do not want myself to suffer, at least, not in this way.

Im on the verge of giving up again.

Give me more time

Time flies and before i know it, it is 530pm. I knock off officially at 6pm.

Not enough time.

I run around in and out of meetings, rush documents, clean up spreadsheets, run numbers, consolidate data, do presentations, talk to people, think about how their processes should be streamlined, write more policies and procedures, flowcharts. From preparing my own department's handbook about 6 months ago, till overseeing all the department's handbook today, the scope, the exposure, the expectations, the skills required, have all changed.

Intense is the word.

Somehow I miss my days in China. Truly. Im glad really that i will be back again very very soon.

Cos when i travel, I get time off for myself. I take a step back to look at my life, read the magazines and books that i want to. I get to spend time grooming myself. A simple pedicure makes wonder to my well-being.

Still On work:

Practise makes perfect. Certainly. Im using excel and word to do things that I never did before and at a speed i never thought I was able to achieve.

At the end of the day, what contributes to most stress is not so much the actual work. It is managing the human relationship involved in every process that is the most challenging. That is something that I believe I am still trying to refine and trying to improve and i know even 30 downs the road, i will still be doing the same. This is especially so in China. When they say "guan xi" is important, I never quite understood until after this trip.

NEVER ever go to China and assume you are more superior and that everyone should listen to your way. In any company, no matter how experienced you are or how high a flyer you see yourself as, when you fail to first understand what the company is doing, what the people are doing, what their culture is and how it affects how they have been running their operations, whatever you propose will only be good for your previous appointments and operations which contributed to the way you shaped your idea of how things should be. For sure, you will fail. Especially so, in China.

Half the time people succeed in what they do not only because they are good at it, it is very much also because they are able to manage the relationship of the people involved very well. No man is an island. This is especially true in the corporate world. Unless you are a researcher working in labs, or that you are a professor who very much just run your own show, you need to be a team player and a leader whenever the need arises.

In essence what Im trying to say is, your technical knowledge brings you only this far, to truly excel, it is the skills and how good you are with people especially that truly allows you to hit above the mark.

Anyway, today is supposed to be the day 2 of the new school term. I miss school. I miss attending classes, meeting friends, hanging out at kopitiam, chilling in the library, buying textbooks, talking crap, doing projects (ermm.. some only). I am truly grateful to SMU for allowing me to explore life and experience life with the boundless opportunities which eventually made me who I am today.

I enjoy work because it takes my mind of a lot of things which are beyond my control and at the same time, I wasnt very pleased with.

I am not someone who can stand things being the opposite of what I firmly believe. But I have learnt, and have changed. Not that I can stand these things better nor have I changed my belief, I have learnt to shove them aside and just ignore them. This is real tough because I hold back. I hold back a lot. When I couldnt any longer, the spillover effect bring me to a state of confusion, depression and unhappiness when I have to spend some time putting my emotions into place again before I get on with another phase. BUt I will not change this believe because I know it is only a matter if time. I see it worked and I know that is the way it should be. I can choose to change now but I know this is not me and unless i am convinced, I will never be able to swallow something I do not believe.

I used to flare. I dun anymore.
I used to make a big fuss out of it. I dun anymore.
I used to mind and be totally impatient about it. I control.

I know i have reached a limit when i dun even feel that there is a need to say a word more.

Anyhow, I am grateful to have peeps to listen to me, hear me out, continuously and selflessly just be there for me whenever I need someone. When I needed a hand, a ear, a hug, they are there. These are the peeps that got me by. I will always remember the kindness and the effort.

Thank you.

Down

Disappointed totally.

Im not sure how long more i can last.

We'll see.

Jackies the american food & on the way to Airport Shanghai

Im back to SG

It feels good to be home. I just miss home. Perhaps this trip happened too suddenly and it was almost a fortnight. I guess that is why i actually felt homesick.

I hate shanghai airlines. Bad BAd airline. Terrible service and delayed at every opportunity they can for no apparent reason and worst of all, at the point of take off when the pilot already put the engine on full speed, the loud engine sound suddenly died down. Heng we havent took off, although we were already moving very fast on the runway. It is a damn small plane, not a boeing nor airbus. Some canadian brand plane. Two seats on each side and there is just one small aisle. That is how small the plane is. As a result, my plane which was suppose to take off at 950am from Yantai to Shanghai Hong Qiao took off at 12.40pm. My flight back to SG from Shanghai Pudong was at 435pm. See.. by the time i reached Hong Qiao, it was already 3pm. And there were like 100 people waiting for taxi and i am not kidding. You know the Changi airport taxi queue had barricades where you had to go wind up and down, yes, the one at Hong Qiao is about 3 times the length and there were 5 lanes. I was so mad. And it was damn hot. I had to rush to Pudong and the journey took one hour.

Thank goodness Chris manage to help me change my flight I caught the 7:05pm one.

I was famished when i reached Pu dong and immediately I walked straight into the restaurant and had a tempura soba. Man!! I think the seafood at yantai is the best and so fresh, it took me no effort to realise that the prawn they use for the tempura at the airport is NOT FRESH! argghh..

I was happy when i boarded the SQ plane. Hey, Im very happy that this flight, the service was up to expectations! The stewardess were pretty, the service was fabulous, the food was superb, they even gave out a menu, and we each had a Magnum ice cream for dessert.

I do not understand why the crew on my flight to shanghai were so unprofessional. Well, I do love the national carrier afterall. The only thing was that there were no more aisle seats for me, and well, i was put right beside the window. And what was worst was I had two big size ang mo sitting beside me on the same row. I felt bad about going to the toilet so I held on until I couldnt take it any longer. They dun even have enough leg space for their legs and bellies.. haahha.. and so they definitely had to stand up and let me pass.

Im pretty lucky le. They were nice people. One of them even offered me the GODIVA he bought from KrisSHop. HAha.. But im not a chocolate fan so yeah.... haha I rejected him.

I read a lot today, all my magazines basically.

Next time perhaps I would do a stopover shanghai to play. Havent been there to explore.

Okay, time for me to head to bed. Tired.

Im used to a 11pm-630am bedtime routine. Hmm.. Let's see....

Qin, Jingyi, Darryl!! All back from Overseas!! Gottta meet up REAL SOON

Last night in Yantai

Haha.. I will return to my mee pok land tom! Yay... Sigh.. it is 14 hours of travelling and waiting before i can go snuggle back into my bed at home. It's been a really great trip. I enjoyed my time working and of course, hanging around town like a tourist.

I met so many new people here and I got to know the company's operations better. I got to know good mentors too and it is really great being able to learn from them.

Yesterday Chris brought us to eat "毛家菜" at "美食一条街". Haha... guess where we went after that? This night market that is like pasar Malam. And I ate the "smelly toufu" which was really damn smelly. He loved it but i was only gungho enough to take one piece. I think that is an acquired taste. I dun think i have acquired though. And the night market sells puppies... Oh oh oh.. they are ubby cute puppies.. hmm... and he told us about how his dog died when he was very young after it ate the rat poison. Can tell that he really loves dogs....

Today i hung out with the expatriates here from SG. Did some last minute shopping before returning to the hotel which i think i would afterall, miss. The bed and 4 pillows for sure.

Well.. I have been enjoying the priviledge of being the only girl around about 90% of the time and i dun even have to open and close most of the car doors. Even on my trip here, i hardly have anything to carry.

NOW, on my trip back... I have to do everything myself leh.. I have to travel alone back to Shanghai, and then take a cab from one airport to another, check in, wait for my flight back to sg. From breakfast till dinner.. i will be eating alone. Time to relax and spend time with myself.

Haha... this trip, i think i got to know man better. From how they think, what kind of values, the good and bad, to how bad they can smell (think of the workers in the yard).

Great trip. Im going to enjoy my korea drama and rest!! LAst minute packing to do tom. I hope i can wake up on time.

Tada!!

More Words...

Ooohhh

I dunno where to start really. Saturday IS A WORKING DAY IN CHINA. But we dun work till 5pm. We ended around 3pm.

Went to 杉站 to shop. It was raining cats and dogs. Imagine our shoes.. all soaked with black dirty water on the streets and there were puddles everywhere. Chris also brought us to this place that looks like Bras barsah. There are these shops that sells nothing but magazines. Of course, they are all in Chinese.

Sat was really cold and windy. We had hotpot for dinner. Yantai is well known for the fresh seafood. And I felt really guilty for eating the live prawn and live octopus. Chris had to throw the octopus parts, which were still undergoing spasm, still gliding around slithering in the plate thought it has already been chopped up, and the live prawn, without asking me for permission, he threw one into my pot and I screamed cos i wasnt prepared and the prawn was still ALIVE!!!!! But seriously, the prawn was extremely fresh!! I didnt put another prawn into my pot until about 40 min later, when all the prawns were dead and nobody else wants to eat them. I do not want them to die in vain, so i ate them after that. BUT I NEVER EVER WOULD WANT TO EAT SOMETHING THAT IS DYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!!

GUESS WHERE I WENT AFTER DINNER??

Ohh.. KTV. NOt any KTV. The four of us went to meet up with the marketing guys... with the clients, for the first time, I am in a KTV where there is 小姐 service. That is not a very sleazy place but well... it was quite an experience.

The ladies that came in all kept shooting me wierd and unfriendly looks cos the they sent many many girls in for the client and the other guys in the room to choose and most of them got rejected, and there i was sitting there.

They were thinking, "她是那一组的?".

Haha... tOo bad... And JO was so funny.. he asked one of them, if they know me. The lady actually say yeah, looks familiar. She even name the ma ma san of the other team and said i must be with her. Then he ask why and she replied cos not from her team, must be from the other team.

Then later on she heard me speak English to the client, he told her there is this PaPaSan, who now recruits university students and they can speak English. So I became 小勇组. JO's Chinese name has a 勇.

Anyway, it isnt a sleazy place like i said earlier and I DID sing quite a bit of songs.

Hmm....BUT BUT BUT...

Ladies out there... I have learnt and seen for myself. I think next time, I would rather go for a guy who has sort of "played" or at least "explored" or "be exposed" to these kind of things before. Cos it didnt take much for me to see for myself, who are the ones that are totally jerks, at least as far as their marital status is concern. The ones who appear to love and take great care of their wives.... When i see the other side, sigh... Im sorry, I never will respect him the same way again. On the other hand, I see the guys who knows very well what they are doing and i cant really describe how but seriously, it is not difficult to tell the difference between the good guys and the bad guys.

That is certainly an experience. Haha.. He said he wanted me to take a look and see for myself rather than just assume and let my thoughts go wild. There isnt any very open sleazy business but for sure, there were quite a bit of body contact. He said that was to prepare me for my marketing department rotation. Haha....

I see guys with firm and strong values, and I see those that come up with silly excuse and disgusting mannerism and lousy lies even to the colleagues. Aiyah...

男人多半是不可靠的

La La Weekend

Food Paradise

Im back into the hotel.

Time to share some pics with you guys. Although there are a lot of fundamental service that the hotel can and must improve, like making sure that their towels absorb water, I am pretty impressed with their laundry service cos the clothes came back wrapped up like I just bought them from a departmental store. Also, they have this nice little box of chocolate placed beside the breakfast card every day. HAha. yup. 4 boxes, 4 days.

I went to this provision shop outside the shipyard, about 15 min walk to buy ice cream. On the way, I saw a newstand and here.. my withrawal symptoms for the lack of magazine is cured!!

I went to this restaurant "Ah Wa San Zai" for sichuan cuisine.

Check out the salted vegetable fish head, the must eat in this place. There is the toufu, corn coated with sugar and flour, and frog legs.

I am controlling my intake of food. I try to do some simple workout in my hotel room cos i cant take this lifestyle man seriously.

Anyway the food was good. I am just looking forward to sunday. When i finally do not have to work.

HAppy birthday Sg!!!!

This is my first national day out of town. And well, i never expected myself to be working!!

Anyway, I should update a little on the pubbing cum mini clubbing that night. Was pretty simple and fun. I enjoyed it. This is one of the must do activity too. The youngsters here are pretty hip. A lot of pretty girls yeah....

I was hanging out with Jason, HM and Matt... IF only I had one other female colleague. That would be pretty great!!

Enjoy the pics...

Im gonna sleep early tonight. I am incurring sleep debt. The next time round I dun think I will wanna stay here anymore. I want to go to the 5 star hotel here! Arrggh too bad that this trip was too rush, we didnt manage to book the hotel.

I cant work in this hotel room. The lighting is not condusive for working. only for blogging. haha

2nd working day

I forgot to share my breakfast experience.

Let me start with my hotel. The hotel has a rather grand lobby. I was just extremely disappointed when the lift door opened. Cos the corridor was dimly lit. Looked pretty scary. I was glad I chose a room which is not far away from the lift and so i dun have to walk to a far end of the corridor.

The room was pretty nice. Like a 3.5 star hotel based on SG standards. The bed is the best thing in this room. I dun really like the toilet for a hotel but i am beginning to get used to it. How do i put it.. Hmm.. I just feel that the toilet is a mismatch to the room. The toilet is like a 2 star hotel toilet.

I love my bed. The firmness of the mattress was just nice.

I just jumped on the ringing of the phone. Man... Damn scary. Anyway, my colleague called and we are going drinking tonight with the rest of the expatriates here. HAHA.. should be fun!!!

I had peking duck again for dinner and dinner today was better than yesterday. At this rate that i am eating seriously. MAd!!!!!

And I had a peach when i came back. Yummy, juicy and extremely fresh. plus it is sweet.

I will continue later..... most prob tom. Need to run!!!

Why does china block blogspot?

Sigh, And I will not be able to see my posts. That sucks.

Anyway, my trip to Shanghai is nothing exciting, except that I was pretty disappointed by the service standards of our national carrier. They are deproving. The stewardess cant speak well, they dun listen and they even appear kind of rude sometimes. Service is not there. Bad. Food is not fantastic also. Thai airways have way better food my last flight with united airlines was so much better.

When we reached Pu dong yesterday, we had to take a cab, 1 hour to Hong qiao domestic airport. After we checked in our luggages, we hoped on to a cab and went to this nearby shopping mall for lunch. We just kept eating and eating cos the food is damn cheap and they are pretty good.

We were stuck in the domestic airplane for 1.5 hour on the runway cos apparently the air traffic there had a jam and we couldnt be cleared for take off. But the Shandong Airline has really good airplanes. Their seats are as wide as the SG airlines, yes, no kidding and that is like a very rare thing for domestic flights.

Guess what, we reached our hotel at 1030pm instead of the expected 9pm. We were lucky to have a restaurant opp the hotel that is 24 hours. I had a beary delicious beef noodle soup and some dim sum plus the EXTREMELY smooth and nice Yantai beer.

I am growing so fat so fat!!!!

Barely slept and I had to wake up at 615 to get ready to leave for work.

But anyway... I have a huge king size bed with 4 pillows. Nice TV. The previous hotel was much better that this but this hotel has great breakfast. Its kind of cool to be staying here for 2 weeks. Haha... My male colleagues got calls asking them if they would like to have massage the moment they checked in. Haha.. apparently this will happen every night.

Today I had a yard tour. That was a lifetime experience seriously. I see right before me, the semi submersibles in constructions, the cranes, the yacht carrier, and right down to the production and even the steel plates that I always hear them talk about.

DINNER WAS AWESOME.

Yantai is famous for its seafood. We went to this very nice chinese restaurant. It isnt posh posh kind but seriously, the food they served is top grade. I love the ma la chicken. Man. We all fell in love with it. The MA LA sauce made the difference and changed the whole meaning to my understanding of " MA LA". The other dish is the salted vegetable sliced fish soup. The fish is some freshwater fish and it's meat is so tender and sweet. Perfectly cooked with the salted vegetable. Peking duck was also really delicious.

Guess what, after dinner, while we waited for cabs, we stopped by the fruit stall by the road side. IT IS THE SEASON OF PEACHES!!! How cheap are they? 2 Jin for 5 rmb. And 2 jin i can get about 5 peaches. 5 fresh, juicy and sweet peaches are selling for SGD1. Where to find? Yantai is famous for its fruits other than the seafood.

Im enjoying every bit of this trip. The food, the people, the experience.

Never before!

Leavin in less than 6 hours' time

Time now reads 1:53am.

I gotta force myself out of bed at 530am, hopefully my adrenalin, that same adrenalin rush that i experience each time before a flight, will allow me to stop lapsing back to sleep after the alarm goes.

Whew. What An early morning flight. This time, I will be transiting via Shanghai Pudong airport. And well, that means that I have to take about an hour cab journey to move to Shanghai Hong Qiao Airport before I can go take the domestic flight to Yantai in Shandong.

I should be able to reach Yantai at 835pm. So it is 12 hours of full travelling tom.

I just finish packing. Erm, I dun really understand why each time I had to rush like mad and my packing is always so last minute. But but but.. I must say that my packing time is improving.. and yup, it is pretty standard now.

Gonna be a zombie the whole of tom. I shall catch some sleep.

I will blog and take loads of pics whenever I can.

These are some of the things that I was told:

• There is a wal-mart there, not sure if it is in their Parkson shopping centre but that means i can shop shop again! Mummy says I MUST buy pressie for her.
• Must go for a good massage and also Pedi and Mani.
• Must buy Shan Dong peanuts back ( Butter flavoured, I tired it before, it is way better than the Thumbs-up brand one)

• C says he will bring me to try local cuisine!! Like how I brought him around when he was here in sg the last time round. Happie!! If possible, I shall go catch a movie there. Tried watching movies in Bkk, Kathmandu, Hong Kong already, oh sy, that reminded me, we forgot to catch a show in Ho Chih Minh! Each is a unique experience and I feel that it will make travelling & experiencing a culture more holistic.
• J says he will also bring me around. He told me that yesterday. He is in SG now and will return soon. Haha, and he said he just bought a motor bike. It will be pretty fun if he chauffers me around in his bike. Somehow all my biking experiences are all overseas, I had two extremely awesome trips on bikes in Thailand and Nepal. Breath-taking scenary around. Okok. I better stop.
• Im glad the marketing guys are going over soon. That means my dinner should be pretty fun and Im sure I will get to enjoy a lot of cuisines and go explore a lot of places since this place is already almost like a second home to them.

Work is very important. So is play. So if enjoying life. So is travelling.

Looking forward to sipping my HAZELNUT MILK in T2~~

Tata!

2 weeks

Had quite a good time singing songs... chilling out, playing table soccer and bonding with all my colleagues.


Folks, im leaving for China in less than 2 days' time. I only got to know about it like less than 12 hours ago. Wont be back till 2 weeks later. Tom is going to be a mad day with all the preparation and packing.


I am so tired.


Im glad that my getaway cum biz trip is finally here. And J said he will bring me around in China, after work, weekend also, to hang around and play. AHHA.. and Eat. And i wanna buy loads of chinese books again! Kind of excited.





Maybe when i return this time, things will change again. Im tired. Very tired.

Im lost again

Im given 6 months to decide on where I would like to stay for the next 2 years.

I have absolutely no idea man.

I wouldnt mind rotating in China. But he said he cant afford to put me there though that will be very good for both him and me. BUt I never ask him why. I will. Cos I will never be able to add value unless I understand what is going on over there too.

I ask what are the available options. He opens all to me to pick one. And seriously, I have no idea. Non of the places that I have rotated so far has something that i see will interest me for 2 years. In fact, I enjoy rotating so much and being able to bridge the gaps in the different departments that I never expect that I will have to make a choice so fast.

Hmm... I guess it will have to be investment. Maybe that was a sign. That day when I was given the investment policy to draft, it was already a sign that I should go into that. Maybe.

But I never even tried trading shares on my own. The finance that I learnt in school is pretty much for school cos I never tried a lot of hands on stuff when it comes to finance. And I am very sure that Is not where my ultimate interest lies at this point in time. But I might be wrong. BEcause perhaps in order to reach my ultimate goal, the only way to be a good generalist, I have to first of all prove that I can excel as a specialist. I have to show that I can excel in more than one department.

Yeah yeah.. Im back to finance again.

I think there is 80% chance that I will go into that. The other 20% chance is into ship management, all the broking, chartering and trying to manage ship like a owner.

I am so torn between the two. Please advise me!

So it means it is Either CFA or ICS. Sigh.

My gut feeling tells me that I should go for investment, be an investment executive, complete my CFA, and later on move into ship management.

Isnt it exciting? My career is so unpredictable.

I have some thoughts in my head. If that is possible, I will take that route.

Yeah yeah... I need to chat chat with them again. I have to.

Awesomely fulfilling day

Yeah. I am still lacking sleep that is for sure.

But I am happy. Very happy at work. I am busy, but the sense of satisfaction i get, makes everything worthwhile. The late night that I spent, the time, the effort, the stress that I had gone through and am still going through, they are all worth it man.

I am truly happy that it is taking off well. I am really happy to see them go get back into their teams immediately after the presentation on their own. I am happy to see that shine from their eyes after that.

I guess I will stick to this way. Think not very nice to say what I did here. But that is the most effective way. And I see it work for myself. Haha.

Seriously, despite being so tired, I went for a dip at orchard hotel. That was awesome. I am certainly tired physically. But hey, I am mentally very awake now. I can even continue to do work now.

After the swim, I got to enjoy my favourite food from BIG O. I LOVE their Smoked salmon and poached egg salad. That is one of the best creation that Big O has and I will certainly rate it a 4.5 /5, the same rate as their "Aphrodisiac" Chocolate truffle cake. Yummilicious!

AND AND AND!!!

I caught Simpsons after that. I cant believe it man. My day today was so fulfilling. I worked and worked, ran presentations, went for meeting, ran around, and I did sportsafter that, and I ate my fav salad, and I caught a movie.

HAPPIE!