Im back

Just when i was all ready to cover an entry on my trip this time round... I realised I couldnt complete it with pics cos i forgot about this lappie not having any blue tooth function and i am all too lazy to start up another lappie just for this.

Anyway, I enjoyed both my flights to and from beijing. En route, I was so engrossed in all my movies that I laughed, teared discretely and went on all the emotional roller coasters each movie was suppose to bring.

Some shows were just plain boring though and frankly, Sept movies on krisworld is kind of bad. I mean it wasnt as if I caught a lot of the movies there already, but sigh... MAybe the movies released in Jul/Aug were limited.

I finally caught 200 pounds beauty. Better late than never and I kinda love it.
I watched Sex and the City AGAIN and yes.. I am still as engrossed as the first time that I watched it in the Cinema. Maybe because I have already completed 6 seasons of the series... I could relate to the show a lot better.
Sparrow was boring... maybe cos the HK serial on the lappie next to mine was more interesting... haha.. I didnt even finish half the show.

L for Love and L for Lies.. a HK movie.. kind of nice.. though the ending was a little tacky, but still, it managed to have me hook on it, laugh and tear with it as well.

Oh oh oh.. I must say this... I met EASON at beijing airport. From afar, I thought he looked like somebody I knew and so I was staring at him a little longer... then when i suddenly realised he was EAson, it was also the time when he saw me looking (we were walking past each other) that I decided not to look at him.

Before that while we were at HAagen Daz, apparently there was also a star there. However, that was a Chinese star so neither CC nor I could recognise him. It got a little too much for him when this family started taking pics with him, getting his autograph and a mini crowd began to form INSIDE the tiny outlet. Kind of sad and I began to feel for him and all artistes. Imagine, he couldnt even enjoy a scoop in peace. Right after the pic, he stood up immediately and just walked out, leaving his assistant/papa behind to carry another bag and to catch up with him.

And on the killer milk thingie... It didnt help knowing that I was away like 70% of the time this year in China and that I start off almost 80% of the mornings I was there with a packet of MEng Niu Milk. Im not that sure how badly affected this milk is but hey, I have already drank A LOT of the milk already so what now?

SIGH...

Bless me...

That's It

I see a big change ahead.

It may be better or worst. I am not sure.

In any case, maybe I shouldnt think so much. Maybe I should be more selfish and think about what I want.

Disappointment arises when expectations are not met.

Maybe I shouldnt have expectations anymore. But that was what happened before and how I eventually started eating my own happiness away. No expectations, no hopes, nothing to look forward to, and Im left with a life of unhappiness. I am not going to make the same mistake twice.

When I was struggling to put my own needs and aspirations aside, I realised that maybe I dun have to do that. As much as i hope that this is meant to stay, I am beginning to have some doubts here and there. Maybe I should just listen to myself and do what I want.

Good luck to me.

Dun Get it wrong...

In case i receive another BIG BIG message in CAPS as follows:

"SHI! YOU GETTING MARRIED??"

haha.. I am NOT getting married LEI!!!

I spoke about "house-to-be" and did not use the term "our house" for a reason leh.

HAHA...

And please!! SY and HS.. I wont get married and leave the two of you the last 2 person on earth to know lor... or worst still, dont inform you! Im not like that HOR!!

Ramblings non stop

My entries are not getting proper updates of pics because my old lappie at home doesnt seem to have a blue tooth function.

All words no pictures. So boring.

My weekend was well.. intense.

Packed. very packed. This was one weekend in which I did not get to pay off my sleep debts. And Sunday ended off with a heavy heart and my mind full of thoughts.

The past one month was kind of spiritually bland for me. I couldnt get myself back to the book I was halfway through. As for the other books which I decided to start, I couldnt get myself to continue again because those are very much self-help books and as the name suggests, when I no longer feel the need, I no longer find myself reading them well. I mean I can bring myself to finish up the book but it would mean that I require now twice the amt of attention I used to put in. I am a person with pretty low attention span. I am easily distracted. I am not sure why but that was how I have been.

Anyway, I would definitely love to get back to reading. Hopefully this upcoming trip would bring the momentum back.

One thing I look so very forward to: To complete Sex and the city DVD series lying in my room in China...

Stretching and training the tiny brain of mind. It's tough but I did not regret the decision I made about 1.5 months ago. Time flies.

No more boring ramblings...

Sigh

Hmm... Im not sure how to describe my feelings now.

I have been dreading to go work these days. Work is boring. I know im at that stage of learning, that beginning when things are nothing but hazy... BORING is all i can say.

Looking at numbers, pages after pages of excel sheets... Arrgghhh...

I miss doing those projects that are a lot more interesting, requires a lot more skills than simply reviewing numbers.

I am afraid that this may not be what I truly enjoy afterall.

Well, perhaps it is too early to judge for now. I would have to wait till after this upcoming trip before I can officially decide if I would really like to take this on.

Hiaz... motivation level all time low.

Yoz

My life hasnt been very exciting these days but it definitely has been the utmost fulfilling.

Over the weekend, I finally got to see the interior of the house. A newly built house of his, our potential house-to-be. Haha.. I am excited. It's kind of wierd to be at this phase of life. I used to see and hear about people buying flats. I never thought that i would actually be able to stay in a "house". A house of our own. In the newly built, unfurnished shelter, I see hope and dreams. I guess that is what makes this whole event more exciting. Not sure if I should be happy about me reaching this stage.. haha.. cos it is both heart-warming and at the same time, it brings me to realise that boy... I am getting old.

Workwise, things are getting a little monotonous and dull but hey, this is always the case for all beginnings...

Well... Another week to go...

Friday

It's been a while since i was up at 2:37am.

Tom is the farewell for CP. Oh I will surely miss you. It's sad to see my sisters leave one by one.

Well, such is life.

For me, at this point, it's funny to look back and see how I used to only blog when I was terribly upset or highly irritated by something or someone.

My life is almost perfect now. Almost.

Good career. Good bf. Good health. Family around and that I get to spend time with them since Im in SG now.

CC you made me understand and see a lot of things I never saw in the past. You made me grow while in a relationship with you. You are my saviour. From tears, unhappiness, insecurity and depression, to laughter, fun, joy, selfless love, you brought me into your arms, though not without effort, and made me see how a rel should really be.

It wasnt easy at the beginning, as with all good things. And I rem my big boss once said, " What comes fast will go away fast". I believe him. And I believe that. It makes sense. You persevered through the hard times. You refused to give up. When I was really lost, you led me back. The hurdles were high. I thought you would not make it through but you proved me wrong.

Maybe all the travelling made our hearts grew fonder. Maybe our past experiences made us both understand the importance of committing and not taking each other for granted.

I cant help but say, I am really happy now.

Thank you CC.

I better go get some rest.

TGIF~!

....& because I need to travel....

1. I cant sign up for the beginners' class for tennis organised by the Alumni
2. I cant sign up for the workshop organised by the school
3. I cant get EArly bird discounts for all the concerts of my fav singers!!!
4. I am not sure if I am able to commit to the classes for my Masters in 2009 and so I am not sure if I should apply
5. I missed, am missing and might be missing family weddings, birthdays, celebrations
6. I need time to adjust and settle down, even if it means settling down back home each time after a trip
7. People have to accomodate to my timing for gatherings, either that or they wont be able to meet me

No surprise, im flying off soon again...