No!

I knew abt it abt a month ago.

I got confirmation from D two weeks ago.

I thought all these meant i am mentally prepared. Well, upon receiving that confirmation email, I teared. I teared for a good 5 min.

I cant bear to bid farewell.

He was the reason that i stayed on.

He believed so much in me, he was always so generous with his compliments. He touched my life.

As much as I cant bear to let him go, I know it is only for the better.

And the pain lingers on...

Tequila Shots

I didnt make it to my 12!

I stopped at 11.

I got killed from 9-11. Drank too fast and on empty stomach.

It was quite an experience. Albeit not a good one especially since this morning. In Fact, this morning was the worst. Most challenging part of it all, mummy was home. I cant get up looking like i downed 11 shots.

This was what I did:

Forced myself off bed.
Took a shower.
With my head spinning, i logged onto the internet to look for remedies for hangover.
http://www.morphemeremedies.com/homeremedies_hangovers.htm - my saviour.
I downed a glass of pink guava juice + water.
Lay on bed and kept contemplating if i should take some aspirin.
Abt 15-20 min later, I had to leave my house for lunch.
I was pleasantly surprised, it was a lot better than before.
I managed to finish 1/2 of my fish noodles.
I survived the day... till now.
It's 9:13pm.

However, I cant eat too much, i still feel nauseous.

I started looking back... Although i began to drink more in China, I realised my last bad hangover was in bangkok, during my exchange days. We played and drank till dawn. I had a hangover before I even slept. That was bad.

Tracy says to make sure i do 12 next time. HAha... I know I wouldnt want to go through this again, that's why i wanted to just make it 12 last night. Im going to be wasted anyway.

Oh well...

Too happy to be back.

Reality is not sinking in

Since I got home and settled down, i immediately started what I havent been able to do the past 1 month.

Internet at the new apartment didnt work for my lappie for some reason.

Even if we got internet, the fact that China has decided to ban so many websites including facebook and blogspot made me feel so disconnected from the world.

I was up since 1030am. Now it's 120pm. I havent really done anything fruitful.
Ate half of the Oatmeal chocolate muffin from starbucks@BeijingAirport when what I really wanted was the chicken mushroom Hor fun with chillie and lots of green chillie from the market opposite.

I need to go colour my hair => Havent really decided on a colour but since it will take me abt 2 hours, I gotta get moving.

I need to complete another 2 chapters from the book at least. Otherwise how to go take exam on wed? So stupidly, I left the mock exam paper in the study room in China. Arrghhh...

Tonight there is a dinner waiting and promised clubbing session.

Looking for an MP3 player. Cant decide on one. IPOD NANO is nice but frankly, I dont need the video cam and the screen. So having to pay another $180 for features that I dont need is not very enticing. iShuffle doesnt come with a basic screen though. Sony walkman, well, for that price, i would have just gotten myself Nano. Creative Zen's features and price are pretty good but it seems to be a bit bulky.

Though my Samsung Soul allows me to input music but i generally do not want to use up my battery life for music. Ironic & confused lady.

I shall go get my butt moving, else, comes 3pm, I would still be where I am now.

Shall go fill my stomach first, then study, when im dozing off, head off to salon.

Set...

In the meantime... which MP3 player???