And as the time bomb ticks along....

I feel like a dead parrot pestering people for things again and again. And do I have a choice? Let's see. I am not holding a senior post in which the appearance of my designation on people's email will ensure that people get back to me fast.

I am the only idiot rushing like mad and enduring the stress cos no one else cares.

I am emotionally drained, spiritually extremely stressed up because I am holding on to a time bomb. And i am entrusted to find my own means and ways, to ensure that it doesnt blow up.

Maybe I will run away on sat, 2nd Aug. I cant wait for all these to end.

Morale, all time low.

No support, no authority.

Yes I learn a lot. But i am not happy now. Im too tired of holding these big portfolios one after another. I need a break.

And for the past 8 months, have I been really doing things that I enjoy? I dun think so.

I cant wait to get out of this place. At least for today.

Im going to go for Good korean food after work. Go for a little stroll by the beach. Get some snacks. Sleep well.

I need a big bear hug.

Perhaps now is when things seem worst, and rest if i must but don't I quit!.

Don't Quit Poem by anonymous

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! if you must; but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow;
You might succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.